I don't want to be depressed anymore.
The shoulds and woulds
All wrapped up in why did he
And how could she.
Eating slowly at the bonds I've formed
With people.
Human beings that are doing their best
But never good enough for me,
For perfection.
I'd rather be dead.

I don't want to be upset anymore
With the strangers on the bus
In their garb of business and ***
That they speak with boisterous joy
They should be considerate of me
And speak louder to drown out my thoughts.
Maybe I could drown them out on my own.

I want to be content
Because I want to do the dishes and use them
I want to ***** the floors and wash them again,
I want to see the beauty in a teapot and the joy in a
soft pillow
To see what it is to comfort a weathered soul.
I want to uphold routine.

I want to be happy
Because I love to feel alive
And I love to feel in love.
I love to love you and I want to do that for me
And maybe you'll do it for you too.
I want to sit with you in silence
And discuss soda in the coffee shop,
I want to look at you and cry
In gratitude
The only thing I can feel for you
And I know I will.

I want to live a life,
Because I want to be alive.

Here dead we lie
Because we did not choose
To live and shame the land
From which we sprung.

Life, to be sure,
Is nothing much to lose,
But young men think it is,
And we were young.

A flame swindled the new breath of acceptance, simple love should have rejoiced, replaced instead by shaken faith..
Ocean waves a life should be wash away the pain deep in our soul,
I stand clear in view as you stand and walk just as we do,
Look around you and see through the blankets we use to cover our abysmal pain,
We are the same you and I, loneliness tends to follow every soul.
Walked, breathe, spoken at strangers
Only to find more loneliness in my heart,
A hand is all I need, comfort my heart
I am afraid of each day, the Morrow brings another lonely day.
My lips hard to part a single word I cannot speak as my hearing is lost,
Deafness is my part a simple symphonic word dear is what I desire.
Gestures are all I've known waves head nods, I watch each day afraid to be a part of your world. My fear is simple yet complicated

I'm trapped here on the east coast and
My blood runs far too cold for the west coast,
There's no one in the mid-west, so baby,
Tell me somewhere to go that I can call home.

My bruises have disappeared
My scars are fading, but
When they're gone,
How will I remember you?
Because we're in a long distance relationship
Even though we live in the same town.

I used to think that wanting a midnight train to anywhere
Was "too cliche", but now,
I realize I don't care where I am,
As long as it's not here.

I feel claustrophobic in my own home.
I am going crazy staring out of these opaque windows
All
Day
Long. . . Waiting
For a miracle
That's never gonna come.