I know that
Im supposed to follow the love
And supernatural goodness
In this life

But i love the feeling
Of sweet sorrow
The humanity
Behind pain

The beauty of
Sobbing every
Raw word
Musicality out of sight

Will I not reach Heaven
For finding beauty
In such pain?

Hold me
Not for you but for me

Look at me and see
My happiness as something
You want

Not for you
But for me

If I tried to leave
Would you put up a fight?
Or would you watch me go
And only remember me for the night

When was the last time
That you took initiative
I cant remember the last time you tried
To show that I mattered in your life

And i want to leave
My heart says i wont last
But what if you still care for me
Would I be giving up too fast?

I feel like ive done everything
Ive thrown my whole self in
Grab me
Please
And hold me

Show me you care
That there is something left
In the me that i gave to you

Because i cant tell
Whats real
Or what just feels good