I’ve been wondering
when and where life began;
into the deep pits of depair,
or the consciousness of a ‘given life affair’
I live an epic tale of a broken mind
a feeling of somebody owning me
I’m living but I ain’t breathing
for my consciousness is contradictive
I’m conscious of the faith I inherited
but not of the present of my heritage
I’m conscious of the peace The Lord died for
but I’m captured in a world of escapades
I’m conscious of the freedom I believe to have
but it’s obvious the darkness of anxiety is what I have
I’m conscious of the love and light
where the silent moon brings out a glorious night
where in purity I can smell sunlight
in paradise where I feel the highline.
I wrote this in November 2014
I was literally filled with anxiety — feared people, experience, life..
I was in severe depression, lost in truth, lost in reality, lost in love. I felt alone, I was alone. I slightly lost my mind; was mentally violated by people, by negativity, by unbelief. I felt no reason to live, to breathe, but death never came to mind. Until the realisation of The Lord’s resurrection, my soul got redeemed with knowledge, with love. I believe in light again, I am the light. I believe in paradise, a home I’m going to. Purity is in my heart and my mind’s consciousness is lively ...
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