You see Former me Would have done it all For some company And honestly Even then there was no guarantee.
I could never paint the perfect picture. Our colors were breathtakingly beautiful but they just weren’t the perfect mixture. Our names didn’t roll off the tongue They didn’t sound quite right in scripture.
But then there’s you And our exotic hues were versatile Let’s get lost in each other Let’s stay here a while.
If there is no guarantee, I hope you choose to make memories with me.
There is nothing left for you to fix There is nothing left for you to say I guess you really did all that to have everything play out your way.
I was so careless I was a mess Somehow my mind you managed to undress I cared about your happiness that for a brief moment I left myself behind In a puddle of distress In a empty pattern of unstableness.
I was born with wings that you tried to cut through There was a disguise that prevented me from seeing the real you. Giving you time to convince me that you cared about me too.. I guess this is your cue...
I guess the last thing I want to say to you is: I hope the next time you look a female in the eye, you select to be true.
A past experience that no longer hurts But definitely a hard time that felt the worst.
I told you about all of the times I believed that you didn’t matter, You said “baby your heart I could never shatter” I heard that time and time again in the mouth of another But time nursed me like if I was her child and she my mother.
I apologize for being so cruel to you I apologize for all that I put you through. Just look at how beautiful you done grew Baby look at all the amazing things that you do. I am blessed to be... you.
I watched as my depression took control of my body It made me push away everybody Until I was left with nobody But me. I thought to myself “how could this be?” This wasn’t me. I was never one to be unhappy.
I gave up I let myself be I fell back from the crowd until I was the only thing I could see. I faked my bright charisma so that no one would see that depression found me.