They say I give to much, and take too little. I don’t see it that way. I want love so I give love and yes expect it in return. But no matter how hard I’ve tried, I’m always left behind. Chasing paper,plastic, and silicone.
I’ll still wait for love, even if it never comes. I don’t deserve picture perfect.
I want your flaws and your struggles too. To them your worthless, to me you want less, which means your worth it.
Nobody listens to what I say, nobody wants to help. I can't even sit here for fear of silence and pray. I want to cry and want to scream but I can't. I cut again and again but still I don't feel the same. Make this pain go away, all the anger just let it swirl and flame. I don't know what to do with myself, I have no fame no friends no wealth. I'm alone and nobody can save me. Nobody. Nobody can take away this pain, nobody can take away this anger. I'm alone and nobody cares. If I died nobody would care. Nobody. Just like im. A nobody
Some days I am invisible Some days I am seen Some days my friends don’t notice me And some days they are mean
Some days people look at me When I say something weird Some days they don’t listen And some days they don’t hear
Some days people judge me On everything I wear Some days they don’t look Because they don’t even care
Some days people say That I need mental help But I bet that they won’t stress After I’ve killed myself
So if you’ve noticed that I’ve been writing a lot of suicidal poems lately, don’t worry. They are not about me and I don’t personally feel those things. But I have many friends that do so I write these poems to try and understand what their thought process is. I am completely fine.
I'm tired and nobody sees that I'm trying here. But I dont know how to help myself No body taught me that. Nobody thought to I guess.
I've accepted that no one cares, and no one ever will. I come here when times are rough. And I'm sorry. I come to pour those tears I've been holding for years. And I'm sorry. You've seen blood, and felt pain. And I'm sorry. I stand here to scream my apologies. Because even If you cant see me, I know you can hear me. I'm sorry.