God, I am calling out to you
though I am not begging on my knees
I wish I was

Instead I look up at your moon and ponder my existence
Nothing comes of it
My soul just grows more restless
But you know that already

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God, I am calling out to you today
To free me from the shackles of myself
To let me breathe your sweet air everyday and cherish it

Please cleanse my heart and give my soul nourishment
Allow my eyes to see the beauty of your earth
and to feel the hum of life vibrate through me once again

I have grown restless, ungrateful and wretched
Let me fall into your beauty
Let me see the beauty that I am blind to

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I want to see again
I want to feel again
I want to feel the sun on my skin
and only focus on the feeling of now

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I want your forgiveness
I want your acceptance
and I want your guidance

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I may be lost in this maze
but I know my destination, I have never forgotten nor can I forget
All I can do is ask that you make my path clear for me

close your hands around my throat and god don't let me go
writhe against me in the grey light
it's fast but I know you feel it slow

i miss being able to sleep
but my heart hurts when i'm not chasing the night

I let you see me and now I can't see myself anymore

Loving someone is never a waste

when you can have everything, why want more?

S for say something to me