******* ****
you charm everyone
why do you do it?
what do you want?

Love me like you love my words

To autumn,

You make me feel warm, the glowing type of warm y'know?
Not as warm as I feel in winter though
Nothing compares to the harsh heat of winter
It's a delicious kind of heat that burns our throats
It's a heat you can feel inside of you because you need the heat so much...i know you do
So autumn even though your heat is short lived I'll still welcome you with open arms, and love you like you deserve to be loved
but just know i'll always be faithful to winter,
it was my first love after all

so smile...what else can we do?

trying to stay optimistic is hard
why can't i just let my anxiety eat me alive?
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but i fight it
because i can't let myself take the easy way out
God it's so hard
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I'm so excited though
for change
not just any change...the change i've been thirsting after for years
but i let self doubt ruin it
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i get confused
am i confident or not?
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regardless of my confidence I suppose the show has to go on
i'm sure i'll find myself again soon

I saw you drowning
so I came to help
but you pushed me under
and saved yourself instead

i promise