how can you tell
the diffeance
between love
and gratitude
can somebody please tell me
cos I'm feeling quite confused
both of them make you happy
one of them sometimes sad
both of them fill your heart up
tho one can feel quite bad
I think I've found the differance
no need for your advice
love can make you miserable
but gratitude feels nice

"For I have spent eternity bringing you a gift"
Neither the oceans
nor the stars
can equal this
I cannot give you my heart
my soul you already have
seeking a looking glass
i look at myself
remembering

the brain
is
such a mysterious creature
involuntary
extrodinary
anything but
ordinary
why is it
such a separate thing
from "me"

you are the most intelligent man ive ever met
and yet
go against your own best advice
does the second statement
render the first
null

i wrote you a love poem
it came straight from my heart
i wish i hadnt given it
cos now we're at the part
where instead of showing pleasure
or giving me a kiss
you say that it's a good one
might well be a laundry list

in winter
the earth becomes
hard & mean
won't allow my summer flowers
even stops
the grass green growing
making months
out of hours

Impulses signalling
the state
of bone and muscle
come pulsating
along nerves

spear
lodge
lumps of metal
aching

Black
my soul at midnight
holds no hope
of dawn

you never wanted

it

to be me

always looking

to infinity

to
provide
the
girl

you
thought

was

she
?


younever­wantedittobeme

i am dying
and you are dead
and this is not
inside my head
we trod the boards
took the applause
now it is time
to close the doors
bow out stage left
decline encore
give breath
to life
not any more

Your the biggest
fraud I've ever met
though I don't doubt
your not done yet
all those years
you lied to me
taking advantage
I couldn't see
the lies you told
the games you played
if you'd come clean
would I have stayed
duplicitys extent
now clear
mocking everything
held dear
you go on now
with more fake lives
behind your smile
conceal the knives
why do I cry
I should be glad
now all is clear
I just feel bad

I feel I am a faithless lover
for I have strayed
not to another
but further than either imagined I would
from you

your eyes have gone
now without sight
i walk alone
in this
the night