I am looking for a love
So big
So powerful
So mighty
One that belongs just to me
I am looking for a love
that reflects upon the love
Jesus had for his people
I want a love that can
cross anything
make anything
solve everything
change everything
I want a love that can make me
see clear
feel happy
run free
cry tears of happiness
One so great that it can make the rain be my ball room to dance in
That can make prefect snow angels
that can glow in the darkness
One that can cross evey barrier
I want that type of love
But then I wake up and realize that, it will never happen!

When i was little I expected the trees to talk
Becasue i needed company
I expected the carpets to be magical
because i wanted to fly
I expected that the sun wouldn't burn
because i always got burned
I expected the sun to never leave
But i left
As a teen i expected people to be Honest
Because i didn't know who was real and who was not
I expected my dad to love me
But he never did
I expected my mo to carry me away
But she never did
I expected my older brothers to take care of me
On none did
I expected the darkness to leave
It never did
I hoped someday I could see the light again
I hoped that life would have been a better place
Then I realized that I only get better starting with you
Now i know, i wished i would have known before
That i dont belong in this world
I beling in the skies
With God!
And when I get there I will be completely free from this painful world that keeps me stuck to lies
pain and disspaointment...

I trust In God my one hero
He saved me
Took my place in the cross and
Made me free from chains
He gave me a second chance to be free

Find yourself a road that reflects you
Walk straight and make mistakes
Give yourself the time you need
Find that one person to help you continue
And don't forget that it is OK to be imperfect.

You try so hard to get away from a place
and when you can finally leave
you find a reson to stay!

Screams of laughter
Fill my ghetto block
That's our nick name anyways
Because every door and window we lock

When the night comes
We secure the our house
For fear of people just walking in
Or someone getting out

We keep safe
Because on the street
There are quite some odd
People you will meet

A man with grey hairs
Asked me for my digits
He wanted me to ******* for him
I told him where he could stick it

The house three doors down
Has barred windows and large doors
A women's shelter it is
To stop the domestic wars

The neighbor kid hides in fear
In his closet deep
For fear his daddy with his gun
Might return to collect his keep

A flock of foster kids
Lives right behind us too
One is confused and misses his mom
Jail time for what she didn't do

A child molester lives two roads down
And he is a level three
We avoid him and have caution
All the kids leave him be

Police sirens wail often
Every once in a while a startling shot
I hear dogs bark and cats hiss
A woman ran over in a parking lot

Gang wars and turf wars
A crack house four blocks down
But for people who just drive by
It might not seem too bad a place to be around

We make the best with what we've got
We have a few neighbors who look after us
We try to be as normal as we can
But normal is something we cannot trust

Of our three cities
Our area is called The Ghetto
We don't earn our name for no reason
It's because of the creepy pedos

We tell ourselves
It won't hurt

We promise ourselves
We won't cry

What a crock
Of *******
*******

I know she's
In the bathroom stall
Letting the magic dust
Work it's way to her dreams
And she comes out
Her laugh airy

Her windows meet mine
And she halts
Her smile fades
Her laugh stops
And she sniffs the dust and snot
Back into her happy place

I take a step towards her
Eyes wet
With knowing
And she takes a step back
And collapses
Against the concrete

She sits and let's her sadness
Drip down her nose
Her eyes
And her mouth
Speaks of her past in one blurr
Stuttering

I don't even know her
But comfort her I do
And I take
The white dust
In the bag from her hand
And toss it down the toilet

I whisper it's done
All gone
And that she needed to pull herself together
And leave
She whips out her cell
Phones for a woman on the other side

And I leave the bathroom
Thinking maybe something broke tonight

I've begun it
The distancing process
You say you won't leave
But well wait and see

That wait won't be long
Before I'm left all alone
In our park
When it's dark outside

My love, you'll find someone prettier
Smarter, with the body
Way out of your league
As I sit here wondering where we went wrong

If I distance myself from you
Maybe it won't hurt that bad
It will be easier for the both of us
You won't feel hurt at all

Because you'll have her
While you hate me
For distancing us
Loosing all those secrets and trust

It needs to be done
To save us both

But as I write this
I miss you already