Me,
The doctor wrote me a prescription
after perception
“This will help”
Help? I want a cure
“Try this one”
Try? I want it to work.
"This may come with side effects”
Side effects? I’m suffering enough!

I don’t want this
artificial
circular
experimental
hard pressed
foreign substance
with random numbers pressed in to it
and a
ritualistic need
for me take force it down my throat
twice a day
I don’t want it.
I am in need of something so much more

these pills are about sacrifices
treat this, get that
it’s *******

So I wrote my doctor a prescription
“prescribe less, help more”

No prescription ever did help
enough for me to stick to it
I would rather suffer
this pain than
experience those side effects
and feel the need that I am reliant upon
a pill to make me
me

so the next time I saw my doctor
I was told a short story
and by the end of it
I was laughing so hard
I forgot about my misery

it’s pathetic
how easily
I think I fall in love

a pretty girl will sit next to me in class
and I see that she is wearing
some cool socks
immediately I think
this is the chick for me
I make connections
on assumptions
about this girl
who I have no idea about
besides her cool socks
and I am happy for a moment
because of this slight potential
for love

so I study her
     hmmm
a band t-shirt
     I dig
skinny jeans
     nice
and a very pretty face
     beautiful
she doesn’t dye her hair
     always a plus for me
she is focused on her notes
     intelligent
and just like that
I’m in love

I start imagining
our future together
how incredible she is
her laugh
...which I haven’t heard yet
I see she has a wonderful smile
and I have so much hope
that she will like me
as much as I like her
well, what I think I like about her
based on her socks

then
she starts playing with her necklace
     ****.
there is a heart on it
with wings
is she taken?
maybe she just got it from a family member
hopefully she did
     probably not
should I still talk to her?

I have fallen in and out
of love
in a matter of minutes
sadly enough
I’m pretty good at this
I do it almost everywhere I go

This class is boring
you're the highlight of this hour
let’s continue this

Your shoes are groovy
your character wonderful
I’m sure there is more

You free after class?
to learn more about each other?
smoothie of coffee?