It hurts
Looking at what you've become
You still have the same eyes
That filled with determination and light
You still have the same laugh
That used to fill a empty room with character
You still have the same smile
That was so sincere
Yet your so different
It hurts
Looking into your eyes
Seeing where there was my reason of hope now seem like empty pits
It hurts
Hearing the same laugh stop short
As if its forced
Seeing the same smile
So strain and unreal that you can't even call it fake
It hurts
Seeing what you have become
Seeing someone with so much light
Be in so much pain
Seeing someone you known your whole life
Become someone you don't even know
Knowing you can't do anything
It hurts

Without


I never wanted to fight you
Never wanted to see you cry.
Never wanted to leave you.
Never wanted to try
To live without you.

Starting off, we seemed so happy.
Even enjoying the silence
Working on our projects
Protected by your presence.

When did it begin to change?
When did the cracks first appear?
Did we try to say something?
Did we simply not hear?

I never wanted to leave you
Never wanted you to see me cry.
Never wanted to lose you.
Never wanted to try
To live without you.

I cannot remember what was said.
I cannot remember who yelled first.
I suppose it doesn't matter.
We dared each other to our worst.

You said that you didn't love me.
I know you said it just to see me cry.
You no longer wanted to live with me.
When we both knew that was a lie.

I never wanted to fight you
Never wanted to see you cry.
Never wanted to leave you.
Never wanted to try
To live without you.

You watched as I packed my suitcase.
Glaring at me with narrowed eyes.
Using your anger to sustain you.
Trying to hurt me with lies.

You said you'd call a lawyer.
End this thing once and for all.
As I opened the front door
Both our facades began to fall.

Anger fueled by ego.
Ego fueled by pride.
Hurt by something we didn't remember.
Hurt by something from outside.

I never wanted you to fight me
Never wanted you to see me cry.
Never wanted to leave you.
Never wanted to try
To live without you.

I tried to think of life without you.
Without your smell, without you laugh.
Without your love I knew I had nothing.
But it hurt too much to look back.


I climb into the taxi
And started to pull away
I muttered to myself
"Does it have to end this way?"

I lean forward to tell the driver
I've changed my mind,  please stop!
Flinging open the car door
I step onto the sidewalk

Looking back to see you
Confusion on your face
Measured steps are forgotten
And become a desperate race.

You're running down the steps
Sprinting hard at me
You've run it through your mind
And you've seen how it would be.
You do not want to do it
Don't want to live without me.

We do not want to do it.
On that our love agrees.
We will not live apart.
Will not try . . .

Without.