The blood moon is up,,
full of spirit and radiance,,
with it,comes mixed fortunes,
love,hate,heartbreak,
happiness,depression,,
its up to your soul to decide,
the path can only be one...

The silver light,
that beautiful shine,
an array of sadness,
with shimmers of death,
the winds scream,
the wolves howl,
a rapid rising heart beat,
a dry burning thirst,
the blood moon is calling,
head its voice!

Be scared mortal,,,, for it approaches,
The night be young, the spirits restless,
The wind dances,, the trees echo,,
Creatures of the night awaken,
Deep dark voids are open,
You can only gasp in terror,,
Your worst nightmares will come to pass,,,,
As the sky slowly turns crimson,
As the eye of the night opens,, blood red and hungry,,
Freeing the wild magic chained,,,
The bloodmoon approaches...

Sigh,
How long has it been?
One? Two? Or maybe 300 moons,
The change in me remains unseen,
My strength has been given a boon,
Now i am a soaring dragon,
The heavens cannot restrict me no longer,
I disdain for they are not high enough,
The earth cannot bind me,
I sneer for it is beneath me.

Time has no grasp on my soul,
No control on my mind,
I have shed the shackles of mortality,
I walk in tandem with the heavenly Dao,
For i have grasped its music, every note and stanza.
I prepare to ascend the immortal realms,
I see past all illusions, all deceptions
I see all truths, all lies
I am the Dao.

Tears are flee flowing,
My eyes are red with exhaustion,
My vision is a bit blurry,
How did it come to this?
The deep love i had, is now a deep wound am trying to cover up,
The memories we made, both good and bad,
Do they not count for anything?
I was in denial, and i could cope,
Now am in acceptance, its tearing me apart,
My smile is a facade to hide the sorrow n sadness i feel,
A part of me is still hopeful you will come back, and that this is just a stumble on our road.
The nights are longer than the days, and only you,
Can fix this broken soul.

A toast,
To the friends that we lost,
To the lovers that left,
The heartbreak that ruined us,
To the plans that got destroyed,
To the family that ignored us,
To the jobs that we didn't get,
To the depression that plagued us,
The pain, sadness, and loneliness that haunts us,
We are still here,
Bravely charging forward.
We are not optimistic but we are still here.
Salute.

This is not a poem as you think,
Its more of life as i see,
It wont rhyme as you expect,
But my words i hope will make sense,
I have cultivated in the dao of love.,the heavenly dao,
Mark this day will you,,
I see love crushing my heart,
My strong dao will waver,
She will betray me,
She will hurt me,
But i have forseen,,
I am prepared.

Enchanting is her smile,
Flawless are her teeth,
Perfect are her lips,
Shining stars are her eyes,
Soft flowing silk her hair is,
A whisper of the wind, her voice is,,
True perfection my eyes behold,

But, it all seems to good to be true,
Dark is her heart,
Evil is  her soul,
Malice is her intent,
Murderous is her glare,
Torture she dreams of,
Her victims, countless,
None can stop her,,
This daughter of eve.

I was ignorant,
like a little rant,
a care free nutt job,
but now i sob,
i recall the events,in true HD,
every nook and detail,
they wont just stop,
the memories,the conversations,
my blood vessels threaten to pop,
she came like a thief,
found me all stiff,
i could go down on my knees and beg,
baby come back home,
come back to my embrace,
but my stride,
its a matter of pride,
i wont look back,its bad luck,

like a thief,
she stole my most valuable possesion,
got me in an obsession,
like a thief,
she took flight,
dissapeared into the night,
no warning,no explanation,
now to pick up the pieces,
and start all over again,
the cycle begins a new!

The sky was dark blue clear,
the moon was brighter than ever,
the stars seemed to be dancing,
a nice night to be romancing,

she and i were under the pine,
glasses in hand,red wine
the stream,silent under the silver light,

she held me close,
nose to nose,
well almost,
and then she asked,
"do you love me?"
i expected it you see,
but my answer she hadnt forseen,
"No i dont",
came my words,
like a rift between worlds,
she bit her lip,
her heart skipped,
her dark brown eyes were now crimson,
her fist tightened,
Tears about to free flow,
before she could break,
our lips met,
a twist in the script,
then came the words,
from deep within my heart,
"i do not love you,
coz that is definate,
but i am in love with you,
and that is INFINITE!"

Be scared mortal,,,, for it approaches,
The night be young, the spirits restless,
The wind dances,, the trees echo,,
Creatures of the night awaken,
Deep dark voids are open,
You can only gasp in terror,,
Your worst nightmares will come to pass,,,,
As the sky slowly turns crimson,
As the eye of the night opens,, blood red and hungry,,
Freeing the wild magic chained,,,
Darkness shall rule,, the world will know fear,
Freedom will be the only rule,,
Embrace it,
The bloodmoon approaches...

Why is life so delicate?
It's like a flower,,
Blossoms n produces fruit,,
Only then,
To wither n die,,
but thr fruit then starts a new life,
And a cycle repeats itself,
Sometimes it takes dreams away,
And sometimes, some are achieved,,
Its cruel most times,
And gentle when need be,
Gives n takes away,
I do wonder,,
When i wither away,
On that unforseen day,
Will u shed a tear for me,
Or will your face remain dry,
Will it be for sadness,
Or perhaps for joy, coz i Blossomed to the fullest,
Will i be reborn as a fruit,?
Take on a new life,
A crisp fresh beginning,
I think not,
Life aint that easy,
I only will bloom once,
All these questions remain unanswered,
For my fate remains unwoven, hold fast,
Not even i, will forever last!

When you walk,
you are like poetry in motion,
your complexion,
like pastel tinted clouds,
your voice,
the sound of liquid music,
your eyes,
deep dark pools of pure mystery,
your lips,
rose petals carresed by the morning sun,
your hair,
a shimmering clown of satin ebony,
your smile,
a reflection of ur beautiful soul,
your skin,
soft like a nubian pearl,
your touch,
soft,gentle and smooth like persian silk,
alas,words cannot fully describe your beauty,,ma belle! :)

This shall be my story,
To be told throughout history,
How she n i,
Came to be,
These words i scribe,
With a sense of pride,
She caught my eye you see,
and how i started to feel,
Thumpity thump,
My heart would beat,
Each time she was close to me,
My heart's desire ,
She set my soul on fire,
This story is yet to unfold,
So al let you wonder on how it ends.

Its all falling apart,
The defence i had put on initially,
Piece by piece i have been watching it crumble,
Its now at my core,
Just a bit more, and it too shall shatter.

I have no more will to persist,
Nor the strength to resist,
I welcome the gloom, my sight is turning grey,
How did i even arrive at this point?
Memories of past i cannot recall,
And days to come i no longer anticipate.
My journey stops here, my soles are worn.
See you all on the other side, if at all it exists.
Sigh, darkness has descended

I usually can write,
but sometimes words dont come out right,

i usually can sing,
but sometimes my voice can sting,

i usually can paint,
but sometimes my colours are faint,

i usually can fly,
but sometimes i dont even try,

i usually can laugh,
but sometimes i wanna cry,

i usually can charm,
but sometimes am a ******,

i usually can love,
but sometimes am layed back,

i usually can advice,
but sometimes am the fool,

i usually can give my heart out,
but sometimes an emotionally bankrupt,,,

i usually get weird,,,
but sometimes am normal,

i usually can do a lot,
when am up to it of course..
But sometimes i choose not to,

its just me!

It doesnt take sight to see,
it doesnt take a heart to feel,
it wont take my gut to heed,
i will have to acquire nerves of steel,
i will mount my steed,
careful not to impede,
in this quest,i shall hope to succeed,
in a road unreal,
a journey so real,
i will soldier on with zeal,
no more shall they steal,
my love n my trust,
so now i walk,
for my soul to heal!

I feel choked, my breath is hurried,
Both my eyes have tears,
I cant explain why,
Am just tired of everything, my trust has been broken a couple of times,
My heart trampled more than i care to remember,
Oh,my soul? Not sure if it still exists,
Tell me, why am i still here? Holding on to this wretched existence?
Males are survivors, so they say,
But am hurting inside, i never wanted pity, all i wanted was an ear to listen to me,
Someone i could pour my emotions to without being judged,
Yet, its still the same no matter where i turn to, i am depressed,
I never wanted to admit it, yet here i am,
The mirror has been my best friend, but now even it, doesn't have time for me,
"why are you holding on?" asks the little voice in my head,
I guess am not sure myself either,
The weight is increasingly ******* my shoulders,
Should i slit my wrists?
Should i drop the toaster in my bath water?
I saw a black widow in my attic, maybe i should aggrieve it,
I am torn between choices, yet strongly attached to this life,
What does this all mean... Is it a sign or am just not ready to leave?
Sigh.

I remember, walking the earth as a mortal,
Indulging in the mortal path, laughing, crying, loving,hate,jealousy,happiness, sadness,
I was cultivating  the Buddha arts,
In order to understand evil, you must the devil,
To understand good, you must be the angel,
Are we really born evil? Are we really born good?
What is good?
What is bad?
Is taking a life to save a life considered evil?
Why do we exist? What is our purpose?
Is it to get fame? Wealth?
What is happiness?
Is a glass half full or half empty?
How does yin and yang balance?
survival is our default setting,
And Greed is also our major flaw.
Sigh,
Mortality.

I am just sad, i have been waiting for time unknown for you to be a little bit remorseful for what you did,
Instead you turned the tables on me n made it seem like it was my fault,
or cause i did it first n hurt you,am supposed to understand how it feels right?
In the dying fire that is us, i have tried my best,
you just ain't that into me no more,
words from your mouth as i recall,
am fighting an uphill battle,
tear strained face, bloodshot eyes,
holding my shredded heart on my palm,
watching my once indomitable soul crumble,
piece by piece,
the heavens give me no quarter,no way to salvage myself,
i will not delude myself on a grand comeback, its all over for me,
an empty husk of my former being, emotionally dead.
the light fades slowly,
Sigh,this is how it feels,
How beautiful the sun sets,
The last thing i see before darkness.

Her calm face hid the enchanting smile i was used to,,
Her indifferent face hid the emotions i had come to know,
Her eyes, cold and calculating, hiding the paradise i enjoyed,,

I never intended to hurt her.,
Her fragile heart,,
Her pure emotions,,
If only i could turn back the hands of  time,
But i know better,
Its no use crying over spilt milk,,
I can only wait for her wrath.

When I think of you,
My heart races,
Time seems to slow,,
Everything becomes clear in my eyes,,
I discern the universe,,
I can't seem to compare you to anyone or anything,
My heart flutters,
My emotions stutter.,fluctuations emerge,,
You have a hold on me i can't break, like a very strong spell,,
But this ain't no simple magic, its grand magic, heavenly sorcery,
Greatest and powerful of all,,
Love,, i seem to be in love wit you, my fluff bunny,,

When reality hits you,
its always sad,
when fantasies cease,
You are driven mad,
everybody is always chasing something or someone,
but they are ever elusive,
we often get close,very close,
and yet,we are far, so so far,
the only option left it to give up,swallow sadness,and turn to another road,
hoping that this time it will be smooth,
maybe,just maybe.
The future is uncertain,
a mystery,
An enigma,
A mirage,
So how do we so through the lie?

My eyes are bloodshot,
am feeling headstrong,
i can see waves and colours,
and lots of flowers,
wait,am i flying?,
my mind must be lying,
how come i feel so proud,
up up in my own cloud.

my spirit is burning,
my soul is igniting,
the universe is in my palm,
the world at my command,
how my heart is calm,
this feeling cannot be undone,
i am so proud,
up up in my own cloud.

If i had wings, i could fly,
I wouldn't even have to try,
One touch of the sky,
above the clouds, so high,
Playing tag with eagles,
Hide n seek with falcons,
Getting wisdom from condors,
Being naughty with sparrows,
This ambition got me feeling dry,
But that's the reality of things.
My wings are clipped,
Now i walk the ground,
Never making a sound,
Making good of what i have.