Bogged down
by envy
of girls
***** dancing
with drink in hand
those kids
who go to parties
so much confidence
and careless zest
dancing the night away
even the most unexpected people
get a kiss
get to experience a form of togetherness
reminiscent of a cliche teenage movie
and no matter how much
I'd like to go
to see what it's like
show a different side of myself
I know deep down
I don't belong there.

Here I am
Lying in bed

Still trying to see
if I can count to ten

One, two, three
Why do you do this to me

Four, five, six
You had my feelings mixed

Seven, eight, nine
Hope you can still be mine

Ten...
Wishing we still can

I want us to get lost in forests together.
to make sweet love under the dew soaked leaves of the trees.
for our bodies to be steaming in the cold unknown.
to create a rhythm with our bodies to the melody of our moans.