I've grown to love these cloudy skies,
Because the stars remind me of you,
How sweet the world must be
To dim their shine

I still never learned
To blow out the flames
And so they grow-
Instead of me
Burning the air
I've promised to breathe
Why keep a promise
If I'm broken as well
Not quite burning
but, still been through hell
It's through the chaos
I've found myself fireproof.
I still can't keep a promise
But, you won't burn me down.

Let's rewind to before we met,
So I can see your smile
Once more,
Before I knew
Your thoughts by heart
And was someone you adore
Let's forget eachother's
Coffee orders
And forget
Our favorite bars
Before we ever
Made mistakes
And wished
on shooting stars

I won't tell you
Our wishes never came true

Last year I would lay in your bed
Fall asleep dreaming
Of words that you said

"We can be happy"

Words we believed,
And today I still do
Though, When I wake
I'm not next to you
Still I dream
When seasons change
Too will your mind

Secrets we shared,
like a delicate thread,
Unraveled with time,
With words left unsaid.
Yet through all the pain,
lessons were learned,
In the flame of heartache,
a fire still burned

Now ashes surround us
The embers are gone
Memories are kept
But, time moves along
I miss you truly
As I light a flame
Watching the smoke
As it covers your name
If I could
I would say goodbye
But time moves along
And flames always die

I've had some time,
To clear my head
But, chose to dream
Of love instead
Foolish boy
I must be lost,
Letting you
Invade my thoughts
Sweet smile
Dark eyes

You made it hard to forget you-

A few more days
And weeks go by,
But, still
I have you on my mind
Your touch is fading
But, I'll know the pain
when I recall
Your face again

Though,
Its getting easier to forget

I tried to see things from your point of view,
And now my knees are black and blue,
I guess I learned my lesson,
Taking tips from girls like you
And boys like me,
Need time to see,
Not every flag
You wave is green,

But, for eyes like yours,
To shine like mine,
you must've also had
an awful time

Sometimes chocolate covered pretzels make me sad,
Not because of any reason
Just the fact you liked them,
Then I think
Maybe most people do,
still
Those stupid pretzels
Remind me of you

Suddenly the days seem longer,
And the nights seem just as long,
I pass my time,
With stupid rhymes,
About what I've done wrong
If I only knew
It would lose me you
And like that my memories gone

There are reasons why
I think the sky
Reminds me of myself,
And reasons why,
At night I cry,
I feel too dark
For someone else
Though, stars shine,
Just mild lights,
The reasons why
I don't own knives
Has less to do
With novelty
And more to do
with clouded judgment

What did you say to make me fall in love?
And why'd you change your mind?
If we never heard,
Each other's words,
Would you heart still live in mine?

What do you say,
Inside your head,
When your voice gets lost
In silence?

Do you speak,
Or wish I would,
Or should my voice
Stay quiet?

The sun wont always shine,
And skies won't always clear,
But, shooting stars,
Are never far,
As long as you are near
So when you find,
That things seem dark,
And the days just fade away,
Use the shine,
That's in your heart,
And you'll never lose your way.

Some days i wish that i could be enough,
Or make you feel enough,
But still,
the moments
That I tend to rush,
Are the moments that move too slowly

And then there's you,
Your smile,
That i wish could last forever.
But, in the moments you tend to rush,
If I was worth your while
Would that  be enough?

I'm not mad that you lied,
I actually don't care,
To be honest, I lied too,
So, I guess the game is fair.

You never broke my heart,
Didn't even dent it,
I don't think I felt a thing,
When everything had ended.

So, go call me a liar,
If you believe that's true,
But, the only lie I ever told,
Was that I would lie to you

I thought that I'd,
Get lost in your eyes,
But, Instead
You've become lost in my mind,
That doesn't mean,
My heart won't beat,
Or that my poems won't rhyme,
I'm still a writer,
My life will go on,
But, if I fall in love with you,
My dear,
My mind is where you'll belong

I think of you,
While brushing my teeth,
And again at night,
When I can't fall asleep,
I think i know everything,
But, I still haven't learned,
To stop lighting matches,
That have already burned
I think i sound helpless,
On days when i miss you,
I think too much,
I guess that's the issue,

Starry nights, Summer days,
You're energy; an Autumn haze,
I feel a breeze,
And when you speak,
Your voice shies me away
Cycles end,
Where seasons part
Yet when you speak
Your voice still,
Could shy,
My calm but, winter'd heart

Some things are harder to admit,
For one, It hurts to say
I've lost my grip,
And for me
Confessions come too quickly,
Is it spilled ink
Or a poisoned mind?
Would my silence be broken
If you were mine?
Or would the commitment
**** me.
With broken pencils,
I'll find my reasons not to die,
And hope they outweigh,
The thought of suicide.

Some films are never made,
And stories never told,
We wasted time,
Writing scripts,
Of ideas that never sold,
Even though,
When we're alone
I still feel like we've made it,
And although,
They'll never know,
This role will be my greatest

Your heart, to me, is like a summer sky,
Still, yet fiery,
Beautiful, and never mine
Your heart is a summer sky,
A week before September,
If i see you again,
Before it ends,
Will you feel just how i remember?

You're a diamond
And I'm a stone of much less desire
And yet I desire you.
The closer to me,
You get,
I crumble
Still I'll never know,
How much you have been through

Right now,
I want you,
And my mind often goes there,
Your words
Are the echoes,
I hear in the air,
But, yet your silence,
Can break my focus

Pixeled pictures and hand-typed letters,
How intimate in today's world.
Phone calls, mid-day while my garden blooms,
Your touch is all that i'm missing,

A photo from my bed room,
A like on your post,
Is this dating?
Are we still in love?

Getting close to you
Was the feeling of flying,
Higher than I've ever been,
But, still I keep climbing,
Higher and higher,
My heart feels heavy.
Either we've gone too far,
Or I'm falling already.

My heart is not broken,
But its kind of ****** up,
Stretch marks from
All of the girls I have loved,
And you in particular,
Your soul filled with greed,
How selfish you were,
To never love me,

My heart is not broken,
But, it still feels ****** up
\

Driving in the rain,
Thinking of the pain,
You must have kept in your mind.
Turn down the radio,
Turn into an unlit road,
Again, ignoring the signs,
If you want to use me, then *******,
Abuse me, to know I love you
And again let me say *******,
Because I ******* love you.
We both know its a dead end,
but, still I just keep thinking of you

Like a house on fire,
I fell to my knees,
I let down my walls,
For you to breathe,
And when I escaped,
The coal marked my feet,
You weren't my freedom,
You were my gasoline.
And so you know,
I never got bored of you,
I just hated how you used me.
And how with you,
I wore my heart,
Around my neck too loosely,

For so long I've locked my heart,
Inside my chest with lock and key,
A treasure kept sacred,
But, truth be told,
It's worthless.

Two hearts,
Intertwined,
Competing for love,
Beating,
In sync with the chaos
Two hearts,
Torn apart,
And I at the center.

I guess I'm stuck in my head,
Again,
A self-made chaos,
Partially of my own mess,
But partially yours.
I'm lost,
I'm broken,
I'm sad,
And its your ******* fault

I know this poem doesn't Rhyme,
But you don't deserve it.
I only love you

2 AM,
My phone lights up,
With a message from you,
"Lol What's up?"
Nothing. What's new?

"A pic for a pic?"
I guess conversations run hollow,
Makes sense,
These days, I photograph
Things I don't like,
To get followed
But, a picture of my ***,
Is that all you want from me?
My DM's get flooded
With **** like that constantly.
It makes me feel good,
At times I suppose,
My mediocre body,
Disguised by a pose.

Buzz Buzz

"Did you fall asleep?"
I did, but I lied,
I said I couldn't even sleep if I tried.
"So, a pic for a pic?"
Now I have to respond,
But, maybe, i'll send something
with all my clothes on
Or off-
It's all art to me honestly,
A mix of good lighting,
And self-portrait photography.
2AM
I get a notification,
"X0Katie" likes your photo.
She doesn't know me,
but cool.

I thought about killing myself,
And still I survived.
I thought about death,
You,
And I thought about life,
My mind is a cycle
Left on repeat,
Sad
Thoughts
Suicide

And in that moment,
I forgave
you

I'm sorry the burden
Of my emotion,
Became a wall between our hearts
Painted with the stone-shed tears,
Of our love in equal parts,
Half loss,
The other blame,
My guilt, a heavy cross.
Upon the past,
Of you and I,
And the love
that we have lost.

You forgot me,
And I forgot you,
Forgot about all,
Of our memories too,
The way that you looked,
In your dresses and gowns,
The way you could make,
Smiles of frowns,
I forgot about flowers,
The roses you liked,
The way that you wished,
Upon comets at night,
The songs you would dance to,
In the seat of my car,
I forgot where we drove to,
After nights at the bar,
Our four years together,
How the time flew,
Most of all Hannah,
I forgot that I love you.

I have scars in your memory,
And poems about you.
I have blankets of thoughts,
In my mind that surround you,
Broken hearts-
Stitched back together,
Inked with your name,
In capital letters,
All those years wasted,
I guess, too long together.
Though Forgetting is hard,
When we both said"forever"

When you left, the ground was frozen,
Shattered thoughts distracted,
By the words that you've chosen,
A fragile line,
Is all it took,
To break a broken heart open.

Broken wings won't take us far,
No matter how hard we try,
We can forgive our selfish hearts,
But, that still won't make us fly

Let's pretend that we're "just tired,"
And not that we're depressed,
Make believe that scars that bleed,
Are wounds inside my head,
Let's pretend that you and I,
Haven't felt the pain,
Of broken hearts that fell apart,
The day that your mind changed

The words that we refuse to speak,
Linger on my mind,
Like rain on concrete,
We were formed to dry,
Drying, drying
Soon there is nothing left,
Aside from the words,
That lived as thoughts instead,
"Speak first"
Broken in silence,

Maybe it was time,
For us to fall apart,
I only held your hand,
But I gave you my heart.

Maybe I just loved you more,
For that, I blame myself,
But, how was I supposed to know,
That you loved someone else?

I won't tell you I hate you,
But, I can't help how I feel,
I suppose I'll try to fix my heart,
For someone else to steal.

If you're the sun,
Then I'm the moon,
I only shine,
When I'm with you,
So, I hope that I,
Reflect to you,
The smiles and,
The laughter too,
I hope I make,
Your smile shine
Half as bright,
As you make mine,

Will you be my,
Valentine?

Constellations form,
From scars I give myself,
Shooting stars,
And galaxies,
Of all the pains I've felt,
Scorpio in May,
Aquarius in June,
"Our love was never,
Meant to be,"
The sun sings to the moon,
And so it goes,
And it shall be,
Whatever sign you're born,
When i think,
Of you and me,
My constellations form

I'm sorry my feelings faded,
I'm sad about it too,
I wish something could've happened,
I liked the thought of me and you,
You're lovely and brilliant,
You're pretty and sweet,
But, there's nothing I can do,
Any sort of love between us,
I'm sorry, it won't be true

I hope you know,
One day you'll forget me,
Sitting home thinking,
And maybe regretting,
The kisses we've shared,
And memories made,
One day you'll wonder,
The reason you stayed,
You stayed with me,
And I stayed with you,
You once loved my flaws,
And I loved yours too,
But, flaws became demons,
Too heavy to bear,
A cross on my shoulders,
For us both to share.

Sometimes I feel like a lighter,
With no fuel to spark a flame,
I guess I'll be no use to you,
And that may never change,
"I'll forget you I will,"
The broken-hearted sing,
Gunfire in the Winter,
Broken bottles ring,
You got higher in the summer,
I still called you my queen,
And every piece of you and me,
Are frozen in the spring.

Your eyes are a moonlit sky,
And I'm a boy from the stars,
I'm lost in all that you do,
And in love with all that you are.

I wish we were still together,
Sometimes more than others,
But, always.