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D Loup Jan 2015
I am a structure, hastily built
Cemented within my chest, the weight of the world
Burdens of nations, plastered on my shoulders
My base starts to move
How long til I crumble
D Loup Jul 2014
You **** me in different ways
But I'd still choose you
Because you break my heart like no one else does
D Loup May 2016
Stay a while, just a little while longer
let me just retrace your face with my eyes
I'll memorize your sunlight gaze, I'll take a picture

Cause wherever you go is wherever I won't
And whenever I say, it's not that you don't
I just want you to stay, stay, stay

And every day that passes, my anchors get heavier
And whenever the wind blows, it doesn't lead me to you
I whenever I breathe, I can never breathe you in

So stay a while, I'll just take your picture
Every little detail, I'll scar on my walls
It will never be better than what's in front of me now

And by the time you read this, it's already too late
You're already gone and no, I'm okay
But it would be better to stay, stay, stay

And I'm trapped inside these words and pages
I've found that feelings don't go, they attach
And so wherever you are, I'll write about you

And I say no I'm okay just like the moon says
No, I don't want a brand new day
Dear,  I say no because you never said yes
am
D Loup Feb 2015
am
I've made a mistake I cannot undo
That is, my dear, to fall hard for you
Even though what my chest screams is true
He found you first, he loves you too
Ara
D Loup May 2014
Ara
I lie awake at night
I know not your face, yet it crowds my thoughts
I know nothing of you, yet you're all I think about
But ink stains paper
I will get to you, I will be with you
I will see you, I will know you
We're merely steps apart, you and I
I am time and you are a name
You are a smile and I am bewitched
We're lovers in the worst way
We're strangers, safe to say
D Loup May 2014
I'm running out of time
You're slipping from my mind

I'm running out of time
Dear, this is our decline

I'm running out of time
We could be so sublime

I'm running out of time
Dear, I'm making up my mind

I'm running out of time
Not leaving you behind

But I'm running out of time
I'm running out of time
D Loup May 2014
I was ready

Swallowing all anxiety like a pill

Armed with nothing but words

Consumed with mere prediction

Intoxicated with imagination

I was ready

Stepping on my demons to reach you

You're in my head, you're always in my head

Yet you're not in my sights, you've never been in my sights

Not since that night, that fateful night

I struggle to accept that my timing is once again errant, as I struggle to write for you better lines

I am armed with words, words for only your ears

But only air and dust greet me in the place that you should be

My words, you will never hear, but it's you that I crave to see

So who's the real loser here?

Clearly it's me
D Loup May 2016
I'll soon forget the color of your eyes

But your name is still burned in my throat

And I'm wide awake, trying to drown it away

With words and whiskey
D Loup Oct 2016
caffeine crutch
restless midnight rush
memorize words to pinpoint precision
leaning on a coffee cup
fuel for cognitive ignition
unproductive nocturnal emission
of restless sighs
and tears from tired eyes
mesmerized
hypnotized
out of mind
passing time
dreary dreamer
2am alpha wave fighter
front line gunner
of disappointment in the making
time wasting
consciousness fading
daylight breaking
clock resetting
D Loup Dec 2014
Maybe I should just stop this
Hours on end, waiting
Everytime I tell myself to stop
You come back to life in vivid detail
Every smile from your lips
Every glorious moment of your laughter
All the joy, all the love, all the pain
Comes back
Open doors lead to dead ends
So maybe I should just stop this
D Loup Sep 2015
Dear, you are love
You are hopeless moments
You are sweet nothings
You are empty stares
You are emotional fatigue
You are physical disinterest
You are indifference
My dear, you are love.
D Loup Nov 2014
Glittered eyes and plastered smiles
Sloven signs of plastic lies

Under masks you call your home
Lies the heart I'll never hold

Truths to you, you'll never spill
Maybe so, I love you still
D Loup Sep 2014
To: R

I want you to know that the way I feel for you is too great to be able to put in words

I want you to know that what you are to me is far more than just a love
No, you're more than that

I want you to know that I'm drowning in a pool of emotions, and it's all for you, only you, always you

I want you in my life
It's just that maybe somehow you don't see that

And that's okay

Maybe it's just that life is always in the way and there's no way in hell that I can be as important to you as your everyday life

And no, I don't blame you

I don't blame you that each time I reach out to you, you don't notice me the way that I think you will

I don't blame you that when I talk to you, you ignore the fact that I want more than just a simple hello maybe because you don't see me the same as everyone else

I don't blame you that you don't return my calls, nor that your only excuse everytime is that you're busy

I don't blame you for being independent

I don't blame you for having a life

I don't blame you for not seeing me as a first option

I don't blame you for your lack of interest sometimes, hell I don't blame you for your lack of attention

I don't blame you for the way you make me feel when we see each other

I don't blame you for the times that when our eyes meet, I come undone

I don't blame you for having me on a pedestal, a travesty for everyone to see

I don't blame you for keeping me up at night, just wondering what the hell you could possibly be doing

I don't blame you for making me have these thoughts

I don't blame you for the anchors in my chest

I don't blame you for the times I doubted what would become of this

I don't blame you for making me hope

I don't blame you for this letter

I don't blame you for these tears

I don't blame you for making me feel this way

I don't blame you for making me fall

No, I don't blame you for anything

This is my fault from the beginning

I knew you'd be something special, it's just that maybe you see the world in a different light

See, I want you in my life so bad, but  it just can't be so

I just wanted you to know that I can't have you, and this is all my fault

I love you

I have to give up on you, so this is goodbye
As raw as it can get
D Loup Aug 2014
When we were children
We learned to fight
Fight the monsters
Under our bed
But how do you fight
How do you fight
The monsters in your head
D Loup May 2015
Oh moon, take me with you
Take me with you
To another place
So this night won't end

Oh moon, take me away
Take me away
To a place where time stands still
And so does the beating of my heart

Oh moon, take me to you
Take me to you
Where your calm is suffocating
Strangling life from tired eyes

Oh moon, take me
Take me
D Loup Jun 2014
I'm paper and you're ink

I can wash you away but it means ruining myself
D Loup Jun 2014
May you never hear
The thoughts in my head


For yours is the name
They scream for


And
I
Am
*Powerless.
D Loup Jun 2014
May you never see behind my mask, for my eyes will give me away

I can't resist,
I'm in too deep

You must never know
that *I am powerless
D Loup Jul 2014
You have no idea how much I want you

How much I want to see your eyes
How much I want to see you smile
How much I want to hear your laugh
How much I want to hear your voice
How much I want to breathe you in
How much I want to be in your atmosphere
How much I want to hold your hand
How much I want to be with you
How much it kills me to think of you
How much I want to stop running from my thoughts
How much I want to sleep through the night
How much I want you to set me free
How much I want you out of my system

*How powerless I am.
D Loup May 2014
Subsistence.
Do I dare look at you and dream
You open the floodgates

Subsistence.
You pause, you play
You burn the flame

Subsistence.
Do I dare dream of you and look
Sleep is my substance

Subsistence.
You run your fingers through stripes
You rewind

Subsistence.
Do I dare?
I do

Subsistence.
We are the nightmare
Substance is my sleep
D Loup Jun 2014
You're stronger than the pills you take
You're stronger than the blade you grip
You're stronger than the knot you tie
You're stronger than the poison you drink
You're stronger than the void you fill
You're stronger than the demons around you
*You're strong
D Loup Aug 2014
Lock me up
Throw away the key
Walk away
Maybe then will you understand
How much I'm willing
To wait for you

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