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divinity m May 12
liquor lips
cloudy eyes
the bottle downs
oh, how time flies.

a life relived
a tale retold
a realization made
i'll never grow old

memories flood in
of a cruel cold world
always tarnished
and never pearled

once it's all over
at the end of my dream
i have one dying wish:
that the world would be less mean.
They say when your dying
You relive your life
Once more
Before you pass
divinity m May 12
i used to know what i want.

i wanted to stuff myself so full of pills
that even god himself
wouldn't be able to save me.

but the doctors beat me to it,
and now they're the ones
stuffing me with pills.
so many that even god almighty
lost count.

sleepy pills
and happy pills
and chill pills
and pretty pills
painted all the colors of the rainbow.

but instead of feeling
sleepier
and happier
and more chill
and prettier
i feel
detached
and disconnected
and seperated
like i am a guest in my own body
looking through someone else's eyes
going through another's motions.

i used to know what I want.
now i just feel numb.
divinity m Mar 17
Idon'tknowwhoIam
Idon'tknowwhoIwanttobe
Idon'tremeberwhoiusedtobe­
divinity m Jan 7
today
i stared down a gun
i had pointed at my own face
but i never pulled that trigger
and maybe
you were part of the reason why
divinity m Jan 6
once my time has been cut short
do not put me in a pretty box
and leave me in an eternal sleep.
don't mourn the person i used to be.
instead, extinguish the fire
that was once inside me
with more fire.
disintegrate every peice of me.
scatter my ashes
across the four corners of the earth.
or drown them.
please
make sure i won't be able
to ever come back.
divinity m Dec 2018
its quite strange
being in this room
full of the living
and only being able
to focus on the emptiness
that surrounds the ghost of you

you've left your finger prints
all over this place
and your late night whispers
still linger in my mind
every time I close my eyes
your smile is there

so as much as others
might want to forget you
spread rumors about you
close the gap around your existence
or pretend they never once knew your name
I will not forget.
Ever.
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