living in the light
where every mistake is public

I just want to go back in the shadows

let me hide in the woods
where no one can see me

let the dark clouds come
and block out the sun

spare me all the humiliation
and let me go back to hiding

I am in quite a dilemma
and it is all my fault

I fear that you avoid me
and I continue my assault

I hope I didn't cause trouble
in my foolish hopes for you

I blame me and only me
and you should blame me too

if I could change my life
what would I do?

I would go back and change the part
when I fell in love with you

it could have stayed so simple
you could have been my friend

now I'm trapped in a nightmare
that doesn't seem to end

I want to stay in the shadow's grace
where no one can see my face
I want to stay in the shadow
I want to stay in the shade
I want to stay in the dark
where I have no name
I want to lose the world
and keep myself closed
I want to be cut off from the world
I just want to be gone

laying in my bed
and I want to cry
I want to cry in my pillow
until my eyes die
I want to cry
but I don't know why

I hate how I make one mistake

one slip-up

one single slip of the tongue

and I fear I messed up my life

and I hate it more

when my fears are realized

you say that everything is fine
you say I am not in the way

but why do I get the feeling that something is astray?