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373 · Oct 2014
I'm sorry
Devon Bingham Oct 2014
I’m sorry
I’m sorry for taking my first ******* breath
I'm sorry for taking my first steps
I’m sorry for making it until I got to Kansas
I’m sorry for asking you to like me or even love me
I’m sorry for leaving
I’m sorry for surviving in Alabama
I’m sorry for coming back
I’m sorry for talking to you again
I’m sorry for bothering you with my problems
I’m sorry for asking you to come back to me
I’m sorry for pestering you even after it is obvious you want nothing to do with me
I’m sorry for talking to you when you don’t want to talk to me
I’m sorry for “guilt tripping” you into staying with me
I’m sorry for being such a pitiful mess after you left me
I’m sorry for not leaving you alone
I’m sorry for coming over in the middle of the night
I’m sorry for putting you and your’s through hell
I’m sorry for making Matt feel awkward and nervous around me
I’m sorry for being here
I’m sorry for believing you where the one for me
I’m sorry for thinking I was the one for you
I’m sorry for showing you the side of me I hoped to keep you from
I’m sorry for failing you
I’m sorry for not being able to get over you
I’m sorry for not being the boyfriend I needed to be
I’m sorry for being...
311 · Oct 2014
Best Served Cold
Devon Bingham Oct 2014
I thought I had finally found my love
But it turns out it was a fallacy
We fit together fit like hand and glove
But It was not reality
I was truly at ease
You told me you had no feeling
But then she behaved like a tease
You both knew I would have trouble dealing
But I found out too soon
Before you could have her truly cheat
She was my boon
But looks like I was beat
To her love
She made me feel as if all was fine
But now I am sick of
You, took what was mine
No not her
Because I feel emptiness
No what you took along with her
Was the happiness
That I felt with her alone
You told her you didn’t want to break up our relationship
But you did this, and now you cannot atone
For now I cannot pursue a friendship
For you have done what you cannot change
You destroyed a love of over three years
So many people find it strange
But soon you will receive jeers
For you may be new and shiny
But I have been here for her troubles
Let us see if you can stay for as many
For there are things she has not brought to the front of your mind
And those I will leave for her to tell you
But she may not be so kind
As to be forward with you
But just know no man or woman has done as I’ve done
None of them have made it past a year
Many of her friends by who you will be shun
Have known me longer than one measly year
You have not even known her for that little amount time
You may be “mature” and have a vehicle and who knows how much money you make
I may have to wait in line
But I will wait as long as it takes
Because I love her no matter what she shows
You have no ******* idea how much I care
But you will never know how much you don’t know
She will never be out of my hair
But I know that one day it may not be today, nor tomorrow, or for weeks, months, or years
She will come back to me
For she cannot hide her tears
Because I know she is crying just as much as me
She was my reason for being and you took her heart
You took my reason
I have been told I have no heart
But that is because I have had no reason
To be sad
I have witnessed things with my eyes
I have been abused by my dad
I have seen the light leave a man as he dies
You have no clue
What I know
Or how much I knew
But now you much reap the seeds you sew
And I guess what may not bother you at all
But you have caused the love of my life to leave me
And I resent you will my all
Now I will be
Not better, not fine, not even okay
For you have destroyed me
And I will be the first to say hey
You are the ***** who ruined my reason to be
And now I am at the brim
I am not being funny
I had even proposed to her
I was trying to get the money
To buy her the ring she deserved
But by destroying our relationship
I feel as if revenge is best served
Cold
For I left her years ago
And I was so bold
As to not let her go
Her friends hated me
They sent me hate messages
So many that I could not see
They were all filled with presages
Many of them said “I hope the the same thing happens to you”
But instead of her leaving to another place
She instead left to you
And even though I gave chase
You were the winner
She has chosen you as his new match
Though I may be only a beginner
You still will not catch
Up to how much we have been through
There is no amount of time that can add up to how many times I have been called upon
For how many times I was there when she was blue
When she felt as if she had no reason to go on
You cannot possibly understand
How much I love the girl
How many times she has squeezed my hand
Because she felt too bashful
To express her feelings to anyone besides me
While I was there for as much as I could
I must confess that I was not the only person who could see
Especially when I was not making good
Choices that contributed towards my own destruction
Though I have made terrible choices in life I believed I had made one good one
Alas it was only a reduction
And changed who I was as a person
305 · Oct 2014
Insomniac
Devon Bingham Oct 2014
In your wake you leave naught but destruction and pain
Hurting those around you but all in vain
Why you do though I do not know
All I am knowledgeable about is you will not slow
By doing the things that you do
You make people begin to resent you
By saying the things that you say
You force people to stay away
You hurt the ones I love
By doing this you feel above
Everyone that you see
While they all say you cannot be
The person they used to know
They all believe you have begun show
Your true colors and they are not bright
Some of them think you a blight
When you tell people things that are not true
They begin to wonder what did they do
When show what you have wrought
They begin to wonder why they have not
Pushed you out of their mind
Because even though they used you like you
You have been all but kind
When I think of what I’ve seen
It does not leave my mind
When I think of who you are
I think of how it would be
If I had my one car
You can just not see
How I would drive far away
You just do not know
That I would not come back any day
How far I would go
To get away from you
You just don’t understand
How much I would like to never do
The things I can’t stand
That you want me to do
I just can see
What do I need to do?
What do you want from me?
How can I please you?
How can I get you to know?
Those things that happened when I was there
Those terrible things I cannot show
The things I saw I just want out of my hair
I saw the light as it was leached
Out of his eyes
His eyes looked bleached
You may think it is lies
But this image is not out of my mind
The thought of how I could not stop him
The monster that at first was kind
How I swore that I would I would not be like him
But we are two in the same mind
The way my time there changed me
It has changed my life
Not only mentally but physically
Well thanks to all of the rife
And all of the your selfishness
With you with my blood pressure I may have a heart attack
These are the reasons for my quietness
Because now I am an insomniac
293 · Oct 2014
Best Served Cold
Devon Bingham Oct 2014
I thought I had finally found my love
But it turns out it was a fallacy
We fit together fit like hand and glove
But It was not reality
I was truly at ease
You told me you had no feeling
But then she behaved like a tease
You both knew I would have trouble dealing
But I found out too soon
Before you could have her truly cheat
She was my boon
But looks like I was beat
To her love
She made me feel as if all was fine
But now I am sick of
You, took what was mine
No not her
Because I feel emptiness
No what you took along with her
Was the happiness
That I felt with her alone
You told her you didn’t want to break up our relationship
But you did this, and now you cannot atone
For now I cannot pursue a friendship
For you have done what you cannot change
You destroyed a love of over three years
So many people find it strange
But soon you will receive jeers
For you may be new and shiny
But I have been here for her troubles
Let us see if you can stay for as many
For there are things she has not brought to the front of your mind
And those I will leave for her to tell you
But she may not be so kind
As to be forward with you
But just know no man or woman has done as I’ve done
None of them have made it past a year
Many of her friends by who you will be shun
Have known me longer than one measly year
You have not even known her for that little amount time
You may be “mature” and have a vehicle and who knows how much money you make
I may have to wait in line
But I will wait as long as it takes
Because I love her no matter what she shows
You have no ******* idea how much I care
But you will never know how much you don’t know
She will never be out of my hair
But I know that one day it may not be today, nor tomorrow, or for weeks, months, or years
She will come back to me
For she cannot hide her tears
Because I know she is crying just as much as me
She was my reason for being and you took her heart
You took my reason
I have been told I have no heart
But that is because I have had no reason
To be sad
I have witnessed things with my eyes
I have been abused by my dad
I have seen the light leave a man as he dies
You have no clue
What I know
Or how much I knew
But now you much reap the seeds you sew
And I guess what may not bother you at all
But you have caused the love of my life to leave me
And I resent you will my all
Now I will be
Not better, not fine, not even okay
For you have destroyed me
And I will be the first to say hey
You are the ***** who ruined my reason to be
And now I am at the brim
I am not being funny
I had even proposed to her
I was trying to get the money
To buy her the ring she deserved
But by destroying our relationship
I feel as if revenge is best served
Cold
For I left her years ago
And I was so bold
As to not let her go
Her friends hated me
They sent me hate messages
So many that I could not see
They were all filled with presages
Many of them said “I hope the the same thing happens to you”
But instead of her leaving to another place
She instead left to you
And even though I gave chase
You were the winner
She has chosen you as his new match
Though I may be only a beginner
You still will not catch
Up to how much we have been through
There is no amount of time that can add up to how many times I have been called upon
For how many times I was there when she was blue
When she felt as if she had no reason to go on
You cannot possibly understand
How much I love the girl
How many times she has squeezed my hand
Because she felt too bashful
To express her feelings to anyone besides me
While I was there for as much as I could
I must confess that I was not the only person who could see
Especially when I was not making good
Choices that contributed towards my own destruction
Though I have made terrible choices in life I believed I had made one good one
Alas it was only a reduction
And changed who I was as a person
280 · Oct 2014
Better but Not Fine
Devon Bingham Oct 2014
You showed the one in my heart the time of their life
And for that I thank you
But then you filled it with strife
And for that I resent you
He gave in to you out of lust
And you took advantage of him
And his nature, ever quick to trust
You broke his heart and bent his mind
Now he is hurting
He believes no one is truly kind
So when he is crying
I’m the one who holds him at night
This may not mean anything in your eyes
But you had no right
To force him to become wise
I will give you a piece of my mind
If ever I am ever with you alone
I will not be kind
I may not break your bone
But, I will be sure to convey to you,
You hurt the one I hold near
And for that I despise you
He was innocent before you came here
And you took it upon yourself
To turn him into an adult
Before he was ready him self
Makes you less of an adult
In my eyes you are less of a man
Than those who steal because they can
So take this into consideration
Next time you want some relation
Think of those your own age
And less of those who are too naive
To see that they are not of age
And that they are not ready to believe
That they are not ready
To do what they will in the future
Because you are to stupid to see
That you are taking their future
When you take what they need
You are not taking time to think
That you are being snide
You have brought me to the brink
But soon we will turn the tide
You will be where you belong
We will be better but not fine
When you see how you were wrong
You hurt those who are mine
When we see you in chains
When we see you being taken away
We will still not be able to remove you from our brains
After you went away
He hurts as if you are still here
I don’t want him to feel like you were
The one who would always be near
Because you are nothing but a animal
One who causes all around you grief
But we will not care at all
When people see you as a thief

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