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Desert Rose Jan 2013
INSECURE, retarted SUICIDAL FREAK!
Yeah I'm aware
That's what them fools are calling me
They think what I tried
Is so God-**** funny

What was she thinking?
She should have died
No one likes her
She has no reason to live!
Why's she still here

Don't they realize
I know what they think
Don't they know I don't want my life
For heaven's sake they can have

Why can't you understand this
I DON'T CARE ANYMORE
I GIVE UP
Desert Rose Jan 2013
I'm not broken
My hearts just shattered
Into a million little
Pieces of dust

Will you save me?
Put me back together
If there's anything left

My soul is still intact
There's hope
That there might be
Something left
Desert Rose Aug 2012
It's storming, and your house is on fire
The power's gone out
The devil's at your door
Could you ask for anything more

Yet that was all
Your lovely imagination
What's going on here
Is much worse

Your parents are yelling
Dad's drunk
He lost his job
Taking all his anger out on mom

Mom's shaking
Too weak to fight back
Worst part is
You're watching this scene unfold
Wishing you had a way out
Desert Rose Aug 2012
I wish I could say
That I've changed
All my regrets are
Ghosts of the past
That I've learned from all my mistakes

But I can't
I'm still just a kid
I'm growing up
Trying to find my place

I don't want to regret anything
Right now I regret you
You devil who
Built me up
To take away my soul

I'm not afraid of you
Anymore
There's nothing left
For you to take

So just goaway
Stay out of my life
Don't you see
How badly you've ruined ne
Desert Rose Aug 2012
Drafted into reality
Slated for death
Destined to survive-
Conquer death
Left to face a new reality

After all those terrible memories of
Millions of droplets of dark. red spilled blood cells
Pouring out of my comrades bodies
Feeling the cold limp lifeless
Bodies of friends who used to be there
Before they were gone
Before they went
Six
    Feet
          Under

All those memories
From years of battle
Will haunt me forever
Always be giving me nightmares

Swore to myself I’d never
Revisit the Field of Haunted Dreams and
Lost Memories

I’ll make it to the memorial
Pay my respects
To all those comrades
Who gave up everything
To protect the freedoms
Of our country
All those dear friends who
Deserve to be here more than me

Years have gone by
Time has matured me
Finally made my way
To the memorial

Names of my friends
Flashed through my periphery
As I was scanning that black, granite stone
To see how to personally
Commemorate all the people
Who helped save me


Through the corner of my eye I saw
Written there
Right in front of me
On that black stone wall
Was Me

I had to look back
Make sure it was true
Seeing my name made me
Think about who I was then and
Who I turned out to be
Made me wonder
How things would have been different if
They had called someone else to duty
Instead of me

Would my life have been different
If I finished my education?
Got a real job?
Found a wife,
Made a family
All on my own terms?

Did war make me better or
Would I have been this great on my own?
I was ****** into battle
Forced to grow up
Experienced **** no man should ever have to see
I can’t stop wondering about how
Things could’ve, would’ve, or should’ve been

Will I spend the rest of my life
Asking myself the question of
What if?

Will I ever move on
From my past-
That day my life ended
When I was called to duty
During that draft
Thinking why me?
This shoulda been somebody else
This is a poem I wrote for school
Desert Rose Jul 2012
Maybe this pain will never stop
A never-ending well of hurt
Consuming my everything
Pulling me towards darkness
Maybe things would be better
If you heard this cry for help and
Came to save me

Then again maybe
You aren’t what I need
I’m better off
Without you in my life

Maybe this pain was
All because of you
You were never worth my time
This was nothing to you
Too bad the
Joke's on you
Desert Rose Jul 2012
Fractured for now
Wait a year or two
Someday I’ll be better
That change in me still won’t be
Good enough for any of you

I’ll be changed
I’ll be better
You can believe  
I’ll be a better person
From all the pain and suffering
I endured because all of you

Those dark shadows inside will
All be gone
Totally out of the picture
You won’t need to pick up the pieces
Or put the puzzle of me together
I’ll be stronger than you remember

Once I’m better
I’ll be over you
Everything you meant to me
All you meant to me will
Only be a memory of
The clingy child I used to be

Finally let go of you
I don’t need you anymore
After all it was all your fault
You were the one who walked away
You were the one that couldn’t commit
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