The level of self control I have.. Is ridiculous Like I am sick of it I don't want to admit it But the **** I do is dumb as **** I keep doing the same thing Over and over again Like it's gonna be different When am I gonna get a grip of it and be bigger than it And admit that I'm not bigger than it I got to admit it has control of me And I can't be me until I let it be me none of me Cause it's controlling me Where I go, what I do And what I say and what im gonna be If I want to change It's about I start doing **** differently
I came in and sat at your bar did i take it too far did i get too real by telling you how i feel while having my meal maybe i used the wrong words or do you think i was drunk cause there is no amount of bourbon and coke that can make what i said a joke "i want you to be mine" i meant that and im not taking it back
Hi Good morning or goodnight not sure how to put it at 3:30 am but I'm thinking bout you and I hope that's cool cause i feel like i just made myself a fool but i dont regret anything i do just know If I'm a fool Its cause i'm a fool for you
we sit and listen to music and i like you but something just wont stick every time i mention a song you dont know like you dont belong is something wrong cause i feel like there's a disconnect and i dont want to neglect the obvious attraction but this really is quite a distraction can we make this work based off ****** atraction and moments of passion or is this gonna end cause you dont like r&b cause if you don't like r&b how can you like me when its inbedded in my soul
Things come and go So is the flow of time What used to belong to me Is no longer mine But i can see in your eyes You look at me same would you believe if i told you The only thing that remains Of the the person you think i am Is my name? I think not Its nothing i need to prove But i do wish you could see How different I am than me
I lay here on floor Beaten and bruised I did things i never thought i would do Yet i lay here lost and confused Cause i did them for you But once again, On floor I lay Feeling useless and used
After everything you took from me I came back you took my confidence I came back You took my dignity I came back You took my self self worth Still, i came back Because you were once who gave it all to me Before you slowly peeled it all away As i sat still. Stayed.
But i am not just some beaten wife Who will contiue to give you my life Because Im not coming back anymore Im taking back... How brave I was Im taking back How proud i was Im taking back How strong i was
But no matter how much i take back I'll still never be the same as i was; You made sure of that But who are you? To dictate my day to day life Who are you? Except the only thing im not taking back
I looked over at my bestie My biffle if you will More of a woman now For we have grown Over the last ten years And losing her has become One of my biggest fears I thought of the advice i was once told By some one who was quite old And now im wondering how this will end His advice "Marry your best friend"
They say dont judge a book by its cover But a beauty like you Must have a story or two With eyes as deep as the sea Theres so much they dont see As i explore your world Swim through your pages And find all your secrets Please pardon my touch For I may leave a few creases,
Cause i dont just want to know your story I want to be a part of it
Her name is on my heart Much more than ink on skin This is an eternal mark That is made within Her name is on my chest Like a roadsign to her soul Because the only way to her Is through me My body is marked as hers Not as her possession But as her protection I exist as her armor And i will allow nothing to harm her For her i will go farther Than a father protecting his daughter She is the reason I live The muse for this art This tattoo on my heart
After it was all over I looked for the light In myself, I tried To convince myself it was still alive Only to find it too had died I searched for my soul In the coldness of night Somewhere in my heart But it's too dark to see Its not in here There's nothing left Not even the fear of death
I am haunted by good dreams Every night I fall into this beautiful reality Of a kingdom of you and me A graceful fallacy That fills me with malice Towards my hellish cold alarm That drags me out of my palace Steals away my queen. And my crown No longer am I king of this world As it let's out the screeching painful sound
And I wake to you not there Living a real life nightmare
Of all the mistakes I've ever made Many of which changed my life
Like the time I went to jail Caught an embezzlement charge Criminal at large For stealing cd's at the age of 17 Only to grow up to be an accountant Have every employer doubting
Or the time I decided not go see my God mom Said I had plans but that was a lie Only a week later did she die And it's at her grave I'm trying to say goodbye
OR when I started gambling And nearly ruined my whole life Lost all I had and more Even my father's ring
Of all those things If there was one i could change I would go back to that moment I messed up thing up between you and me And instead go with plan B Just for the chance Just for the possibility That you could have ended up with me
Im scared to move on see i can live with this pain im rather use to this rain i have always been a hopeless romantic doing things that don't make sense like holding on to something that's already gone but i am so wrong to be scared to move on Cause really it's just I don't like giving up If I think there even a small chance Like a special circumstance see im not scared of letting go, getting hurt, or being alone im scared of the fact that you could come back to find me in place that i no longer call home and im worried i'll miss out on an opportunity for you to fall back in love with me
You are the apple of my eye My moon and my stars And our love will never die cause i love you to the moon and back like you're the only girl in the world you're the only one i see and that's when i get weak in the knee cause my heart skips a beat life really isnt fair but all is fair in love in war and even though love is blind it was love at first sight You had me at hello with you everything seems right With you all my problems go away i think of you all day I don't know what else I could say You really are... every cliche
I'm really tired of being the bigger man I hope you respect everything that I am Cause I'm giving up on you So you can be happy too And I mean that to both you two Cause at first you said it was casual but now if we are being factual It's quite the opposite And that's why I letting go of it So I hope you can think this is a little sappy But really I just hope you both are happy
But down below all of this I still feel a little ******
Get the **** out off my mind Seriously I'm so done with wanting you I don't want this yearning I'm tired of my stomach churning I run away when I see you Is that not enough of a clue But you're always ******* there No mater where I go Theres no escape No matter where I go I can't you get you out my head No place is safe Not even my own ******* bed Because even there when I'm trying to sleep You torment me in my dreams I wake up in screams Can't you just leave me alone Or atleast not be there the next time I come home Go, get out, LEAVE
Hey how are you? Look, please pardon my behavior as of latley But I came to ask a favor I know it's been a while So Sorry if this seems a little weird But from the beginning this is what I feared You see the thing is I'm still stuck on you So if you would do this favor That would make you my doom and my savior Just tell me it's over between me an you that you don't have feelings for me too Cause my brain knows it's true But my heart can't tell it apart From a passing moment Or a future that was heaven sent Please just say it out loud So my heart can face the music So it can let go of these feelings that are now useless Cause really these thoughts are ruthless So please lay my hopes to ease Just do me this one small kindness it's the least you could do atleast tell me its over So I can atleast have some closure
I'm enraged by the mistakes I made Like trying to kiss you while you were still engaged That cost me everything that I could of had Cause after that you were so mad now theres no going back I see you with someone new And there's nothing I can do except watch you from a distance Always reminded of that instance That changed our fate Oh the irony that your name is destiny Cause i feel like life is testin me I want to fight for you But It just wasnt meant to be I'm detained in my brain By all the things that could be gained So by this simple fact I am pained Simply put You're not preordained
The day seemed like any other i thought everything was the same until you came and passed bye without saying hi so i walked up to you and looked you right in the eye but i was apalled by what i saw because there was nothing there like you couldn't see me or didnt even care so i pressed my lips against your's expecting us to still be a pair but you didn't feel a thing and i felt this heart renching pain as you walked through my body like I didn't exist i watched as you walked away thinking of what to say as you walked over to him i started to scream i yelled everything that i thought would make you stay i gave it my all but you to didn't even twitch like you couldn't hear my heartfelt call yelling from the middle of the room suprised that no one else seemed to notice i was suddenly forced to face my doom as i looked back to you with him i noticed the world was a little dim right when i saw you kiss it was at that moment that i was able to see the truth see, I didnt even know but i was a ghost and i had died long ago
From a man Who has played russian roulette And pulled the trigger When he was on the second to last chamber I'll tell you this The scariest thing you will ever have to do In this world of men Is love again
I listened As you tried to explain How you looked at the moon The beauty it holds the night How it consoles you And holds you in its light As you stare only to know That will never be able to go How you felt sorry for the wolf Cause you understood it's howl Yearning for the moon Wondering how life could be so foul To put something so magical in sight But simply out of reach I watched you as you looked up in the sky As the moon illuminated what was falling from your eye You think I don't understand But what you don't know is I am not a man And you are not a woman I'm the wolf And you're the moon
5 steps forward 8 steps back Then I slipped and fell tumbled down into hell My soul forced to sell Trying to climb out But i'm chained to a boulder That alone I cannot shoulder Something I thought I would never need I'm can no longer do this by myself I'm here asking for help
It's those moments Right before you jump off a cliff When your heart doesn't just beat But hits you in the chest Trying to push you back From this leap your about to make Forcing your body to take Against all fear That excitement That adrenaline that fills your veins When your feet leave the ground And there's no coming back As your falling down
I live for those moments Because in life there are only a few Like first time I looked in your eyes And the first time I said I love you
While brushing my teeth i looked up to the mirror suprised by what i saw i smiled for second and got closer to see it a little clearer not ashamed when i say i cried cause what i saw was beautiful even after all the times i lied after all the things i have done with no coming back from i saw what i thought had died for the first time in long time i looked my self in the eye and i saw pride
In the past I have given in to a vice to the point i feel as if i have ruined my life lost purpose to live lost my pride or any reason to be proud i have dug myself into a hole that has burrowed deep into my soul i forgot who i was but this is a promise to myself That 5 month from now I will be out of this abyss i will grind harder that i ever have before for this one goal i will live with sole purpose of taking back my soul
You say i dont get another try you say i dont get a second chance its just the same song and dance and you're right but all the back and forth and stepping on each others toes is all part of our first dance this is just our first life our only life and this is my one and only chance to try and make you my wife
Even if I get it all the money back The 2 motorcycles The new car The 30 k in mutual funds Paid my debts off And made amends It won't matter at all Cause by losing you I lost it all
What color are your eyes? something i will never know even as i fed you all those lies an honest gaze i never did show and now you look away when ever i enter a room and what could i say as i see disgust and anger in your face consume how sad it is knowing i am to die with out ever knowing the true color of your eye
There was a wall of glass Standing between me and you You could see me on other side So you let go of your pride And sliced your heart On every shattered sliver of glass As you broke your barrier apart But the deepest cut Came when you had to pick it up
Your heart kept me warm in this freezing tundra of life but now your hands are chilling your thoughts are harsh your eyes freeze my soul and Im left alone in the icy darkness fighting against this cold world i have no one by my side facing certain defeat with nothing but my own body heat
The world is a cold and cruel place The clouds are dark life pushes burning wind against your face and freezing rain falls day after day there may be no end in sight but you can find warmth and cover in the soul of another
These years were fun And I must admit I'm rather fond of the times we had And it makes me a little sad To say goodbye But You dug us into this hole That will be your grave I must leave this life behind But rest assured these stories will be told And every occasion remembered Even as I turn old So i write on this tomb stone As i head of into the world alone The old me is dead and gone
An island of ash signs of a past life Melted black rock Scars of the last breath When this land gave it's all Red hot passion spewed from its lips And swept over everything that made this land A volcano thought dormant Tried to love again Poured it's hearts out Even as the magma scorched all the good That once called this land home now marks this dead earth With this one last eruption One last confession This volcano died And took everything with it forever in torment This volcano is now forever dormant
Goodbye, ciao so long and see you later. adios, peace, and deuces a wave, a hug, or a kiss so many words or even just silence there are so many ways to say goodbye you chose "we can still be friends"
Goodbye to everything I thought we would be Goodbye to everything I thought we were gonna do Now don't me mistaken cause I'm not saying goodbye to you for you will always be part of my heart So this is just goodbye to part of me
I'm on the edge of a cliff That at any moment Could break away And this entire mountain would fall apart I can feel the ground start to tremble As all my options pass through my temple And this rock slips from the base I realize any move I make Will just quicken it's pace So I stand here on this cliff Almost as if There is nothing to fear Like I'm just standing here Without a clue just taking in the view How the sky above has a faint red hue And on the ground there is still a little dew The green light as the trees touch the ocean's blue Looking over everything below Atleast this view I can enjoy Before the this rock let's go And I am no more
They say I'm always on the go that money is the only thing that I know they say I don't stop for anything and I'm passionate about what I do But what they don't know is that I can't stop If I did i wouldnt to be able to do anything but think of you
I'll pick up these embers Of a remnant fire Left in this world of snow That no longer remembers What it feels like to be alive As they hold a dark glow Barely clinging to life I'll pick up these embers I'll hold them in my palms I'll let them burn my hands I'll blow on them softly Just to keep them from dying As my fingers go numb Black from harsh ash As callices from burning pain Harden these hands I'll hold on to the embers Of a remnant fire That no one but me remembers