Time is passing by
Seconds are ticking on
Every moment that passes
Is a moment spent alone
Alone in a room of silence
With nothing but loud and chocking thoughts
Alone without your presence
I watch the clock tick on

My life is coming closer to an end
Yet my soul still awaits the day
The day when life will be a joyful ride
The day when everything that comes along wouldnt have to be faced alone
Instead, with you
But for now, I have to bear the voice of my thoughts, and my lonely soul

You distracted me from people
People who really mattered, and always will
You distracted me from the greatness of my life
My true and initial life
You brought upon what you assumed I wanted
What you assumed I needed
But dear, you were wrong
Oh how wrong
For all the mess you caused petrified me
And left you astounded so you decided to leave
You left me behind in a fire you started
Dry out of the water
But hey,
It's my fault, for standing too close to the fuel...

I used to walk in a garden that blossomed
It blossomed with the finest of trees and flowers
I saw everything in the happiest light
    and life, was a walk in the park
Never did I think there's a dark side to it all
Cruelty
        Selfishness
                     Abandonment
                                             Lies
     ....and everything else
The garden withered
The walls keeping away the negativity broke down
The little happy girl no longer walked in her garden
She sadly sat in the darkness and despair of her room, her soul
Hopelessly she scolded herself
Without any hope she still wishes for a happy end anyway.

I see the way you look with those brown innocent eyes
The eyes that see the world in it's best light
You see the world in a point of view which i yet have to unravel
The way you look up at the sun, forming crinkles around your face
The way you look up from the ground, to take a short little glimpse
Your eyes, they magnify at the positives and only see the best in everything
The beauty of this world and the true hidden person within can only be seen by someone like you

she’s lying in bed
hand over her mouth to muffle the sounds of her soul
the sounds of her soul sobbing
her heart is cracking with every little sob
every moment she remembers everything that happened
the pain increases
the tears roll down her rosy cheeks
her heart is so broken yet she loves so lovingly
like no one ever before
like she was never hurt before
but she lies in bed, knowing she’s a waste of space
a breathing dead walking this earth
she hates herself for doing what she did
and she can never hate another more than she hates herself
for her unknowing soul and broken heart are withered
    

                           exhausted.

I sit on the wet grass after the rain
watching the sun slowly rise
the birds begin to chirp
and the moon is already hidden
if there is something I would want to catch
it would be the moon
but every night I watch it hide, doing nothing about it
without the moon, there’s no night
no time to be alone in a soundless room
with loud thoughts
no time to be alone, trapped within your own self
you have to put on a show
put on a happy face
to show the world, that you are strong
but its the moon
its the night, which sees the true sadness that fills your soul
and no matter how far you run
you’re always a prisoner of your own mind

I wrote about you, day and night
You are my moon, you are my sun
I wished for the day when we would finally unite
Like the stars in the galaxy, shining bright
I was dreading the fact that the day might never come
When you wrap me in your arms and tell me it's fine
When you utter those words and protect me for life
My dread was increasing, my hopes were decreasing
I slowly shattered into a deep despair
Losing all senses of a fulfilled life and hope
I thought that the fantasies and dreams in my head are unrealistic and are merely an illusion
But then there you were, my protector, my hero
You grabbed me right at the end of the cliff and held me tight
You reassured and brought my soul back to life
You were my protector, and I was yours
We are now, now and forever, inseparable
For we suffered too long in the absence of one another

You pull yourself away
And drag everybody along
Along the road of misery and misleadingness
Some know it's all your lies
Some know it's all your mask
But wait a little longer, the light is creaking in
For the mask is pealing off and the devil is revealing
And the time will come, when everyone will see
The true face of the misleading

The silky thoughts raddle my brain
They cut out my speaking
And steal all my breath
I sink in my brain with no power to speak
No power to express
What I really do feel

there are poems raging through my head
they burn me inside out
but if i were to write them down
they'd burn the paper and the reader
just the same as they burn my soul