Aasiyah

Aasiyah 5h

a woman

what does it mean to be a woman?
what does mean to bleed?
what does it to be chased?
what does it mean to be erased?

i'm so sick and tired of all this lust
i wish the world would turn to dust
sometimes i want to cut off my own face
problems i don't feel strong enough to face

what does it mean to be a woman?
why do men have to hurt my pride?
If you don't like who the **** I am
there's no chance you'll get inside

my ***** is a private club
my body is to be gazed upon in closed off mirrors
and my self is a shadowy reflection
that disappears

the child in me on gone
my body is too ripe
they pick me off like a fruit
constantly trying to pipe

why do you have to **** me inside?
why can't eat me till I die?
you like me because I'm ******
but want a good girl for a bride

it's too bad that I'm a *****
i'm a ****, and i'm a witch
i am everything a man could ask for
and everything the right one could wish

no one appreciates anything I do
and i have to live for myself
***** I always want to die
cause' i can't be anybody else

what does it mean to be a woman?
i'm myself despite my flaws
pain is something that I live it
magics' something that I draw

from myself and the earth
in life, to death, from birth
i will live for myself,
i will fight for my worth

i've had guys lust over me since i was 9 lol

Aasiyah 5h

The Dragon Man

A dark stormy night
filled with wither and wry
a woman filled with fright
caught in her Third Eye
a man in the dark
who was seeking his prey
she grabbed her sword
she had dragons to slay.

scales shine bright in this moonlight
soon, one of them will die
but she knows they are one,
there is no reason to hide
I know the darkness is me,
I know that he's always with me
how blissful it would be
if always a dragon, I may be.

One day, the morning star
rose in all it's bliss
she stood above a roof
about to fall for his kiss
she had a desire so strong
that to death, she may belong
if she didn't get her man.

fantasizing about his kiss
falling into nothingness
the abyss seems like bliss
past the dream into the mist

I wish my life was clear
so I could live without fear
the dragon man takes my fall
he is who I am after all.

A dark stormy night
filled with wither and wry
a woman filled with light
looked into her eye
the dragon man waiting
for her to see
that he is
half of she.

Aasiyah 6h

you complete me

yeah I love you
you complete
with your harsh words
you defeat me
if i saw you
i'd fall to my knees
all in fear
i want to disappear
you're my everything
and for you
i'd do anything
i've done it all
babe, i've gone insane
you are godly
while i am inhumane

Aasiyah 6h

Religion

Four years ago, I died
I've lived my life a lie
I felt inside my heart
an ever-loving guide
I prayed, and prayed for love
while looking up above
tears rolling down my eyes
I closed them as I cried

I begged and begged,
and when I lay my head to rest,
I wondered why
I was treated so much less
I kept looking up to the sky
a hole with emptiness
and I had no one else to rely,
and with nothing to hide

with my heart, I confessed. . .
you could say that I'm blessed
with all that I've lost
I've gained so much wisdom
but at what cost?
I don't think that it's worth it
I don't think that I'm happy
I understand my purpose;
I don't accept it gladly.

I've lost my religion
it wasn't my decision
after all, I guess I don't always value the truth.
but I've been through so much pain
to me, it is all in vain,
what was sacrificed of my youth
my innocence was slain
all for the hurtful truth.

Aasiyah 6h

Hero

You saved me from my pain
by filling up my heart
with a love plastic and fake
that quickly fell apart

Our empire of love
was built upon a lie
But I love you still,
and that love will never die

You were my hero,
and I was your zero
You were my trophy,
and I was your prize

I wanted to keep you, always wanted to be near you
but I was an object inside of your eyes.
Your lies were crystal, in my rear mirror,
I was secret that you bled to hide

You were my lover, my one and only,
but I was a shadow in the shape of your lust.
I was so young, and I am naive
been too many years, yet I still stand to grieve

I always wear my heart on my sleeve
and you grab my wrist to prey on me;
I have no one to pray to
and although in this world I am free,
you are the one I'm a slave to
my childhood belief is that you'll set me free,
although you search for someone to save you

I've made you my hero for all of my life,
the legends lives on, and it will never die.

I've made you my hero for all of my life
what a dangerous thing to have made you.

I hope someone will save you
I have no one to pray to.

Aasiyah 10h

A fairy

A human
so lost
wondering
through a forest
finds
a bright
little fairy,
so beautiful and small.

She makes a wish
that she
will be beautiful
free
powerful
and radiant
and find her way
back to her kingdom
but nothing happens.

Instead,
she sits there,
on the trunk she saw the fairy,
before it disappeared.

She closes her eyes,
and cries a bit
engrossed by
the peaceful darkness
she sees spirals of colors
she sees a prince
that is pink and blue
she hears a voice
"you are beautiful"
"you are radiant"
she is filled with light

I am powerful.
I am free.

She feels tall
like a castle
filled with echoes and rooms,
cobwebs and bats,
she feels loud.

She feels strong, and heavy,
like strong bricks
ancient, made from long ago
she feels like
she has existed forever.

Her presence expands
she is everything
she is giant
she is huge
but that little voice
in her head
the one that guided her
it is meek,
it is small,
it is bold,
it is a fairy.

Aasiyah 10h

I'm sorry

My soul heavy, chasing material desires
Frustrated by the iron chains that hold me down
Heavy on me,
sinking me
into hot
scorching
magma.

As I try to become more and more God-like,
I get filled with more emptiness
more nothingness
I cremate
into ashes
and scatter across the void

I feel the horror
and anger
and fear
and whatever it is
and an inability to understand.

I feel paranoid
and confused
and just wished it was all clear

I feel stupid

And I'm sorry.

I think I felt sorry for not understanding spirituality