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Daughter Nov 2018
I know it's too late,
But let me say one thing
Im sad you're moving in with her.
You know I still dream about that sometimes
I wake up confused
Wondering why it wasn't true
trying to figure out why it didn't work
The inevitable and unavoidable truth
is that it was all my fault.

I know I waited too long
but I swear I could love you now
Im ready to be scared of the love, the feeling of your love
Im ready for the most dangerous and yet safest fall
Im better now, I promise
I think.

I know I lost my chance
but if you just gave me one more
I would worship you the right way
every part of you that tried to save me
so long ago.
I want to have all of you
But I shouldn't keep holding on.
I should let go.

But how could I if I don't just at least let you know,
Im sad you're moving in with her.
You were supposed to be mine
and I was supposed to be yours
You were supposed to sing to me and I would write about you
It was supposed to be us
Daughter Oct 2012
You know every color of my abstract heart
When I fell, I fell through drapes of soft rounded
sand.
Your figured out way,
Channeled my rough edges.
You guided my hand into yours
Warming my thoughts.
Your eyes calm the sea that troubles my soul.
You arms are the fences that shut away my fear.
You pulled me away,
into a body of love.
With waves rolling with colors of forever.
Daughter Nov 2015
Maybe in the next life I'll be the musician.
You'll be me and I'll break my own heart over and over again.
Or you'll break mine.
Or I'll break yours.
You can have my words and all my thoughts
Hold them as your own,
I'll be soft and gentle with you
Just as kind as the sweet songs you'll hum
into my mind.
You'll feel lost and push me away just to save yourself rom the fear of
being alone.
You'll hide away for days just waiting
to be found and I will find you.
I'll keep finding you
over and over again.
I'll save you from whatever strange idea has most recently creeped into
your constantly turning mind.
Ill save you only to give you your strength to run and hide again.
We will play a vicious cycle,
continuously returning to our inevitable goodbye.
With each coming of the cyclical beginning of our end,
we vow to pull at each others hearts a little more tightly
than the last time.
Daughter Oct 2012
A heart does not deserve to Break
Nor feel a Winter's bite alone.
A heart is such a beautiful thing,
No harm to it shall I Condone.
Yet, sweet Lover, why must you bring such danger near?
Your heavy burdened mind and soul
bring me too much fear.

Why do you leave me one sole soul
When I am meant to be one of Two?
Why do you break apart our whole,
When I am meant to be a part of you?
You've harmed me close to my
beating life.
Please don't lone babe, I beg you no.
My beating heart beats one beat less.
You've killed me dear with your single blow.
Daughter Sep 2014
I just wanna listen to you inhale for a moment and exhale the next
I just want a little time to remind you why I'm here with you and just what you did that caught my eye on that funny little day way back last October  
I could do with some quick glances your way while you're not looking as to catch you in those moments you let your true feelings show, when you think no one is watching.
I just want a few chances to brush my hand along yours in a crowded room of people we sort of know
If only, if only to give a quick reminder of the familiarity that is still there.
I want your tshirt smell to be my calm down after a stressful drive home from work and I want to share spaghetti with red sauce and cheap wine
Kiss my neck and be my friend and hold me close because I need you so much more than I would ever show because the fact that I just wanna hear you inhale for a moment and exhale the next scares me into a million tiny pieces of worries
But here I am wishing for another day in October to see if I could really be yours in the way I wished to be for so long
Daughter Dec 2013
My heart turns to honey
So sticky so sweet
My thoughts turn to molasses
so thick and slow
Your voice in my ear
Brushed on like dark chocolate
Your lips to my neck
Like warm steam from black tea
You're my guilty pick me up
With your caramelized touch
Drown me in syrup
I'm addicted to your sugar
Daughter Oct 2012
I shared my life with you,
helping you every chance I got.

You made it through,
I made it through,
We made it through,
Those tough times.

But now, you're letting go.
And now you're loosing hope.
And now, you're slipping.

Please hold on.
Keep hope.
Hold tight.

If you're loosing strength, here; take half of mine.
If you're loosing hope, have part of mine. I can hope for the both of us.
If you're slipping, just take my hand.

I'm never letting go. I Promise.
I Pinky Promise.
Daughter Oct 2012
Let me look up into the sky
and dream.
Let the sun shine on me and make me feel special.
Let me lay in the green grass and hold its blades
between my fingertips.
Let the sun shine on me and make me feel special.
Let me spin my body through the whispered wind of the trees.
Let the sun shine on me and make me feel special.
Let my eyes widen with the beauty of a single petal falling from a rose colored flower.
Let the sun shine on me and make me feel special.
Let me breath in the aroma of warmth through my grinning lips.
Let the sun shine on me and make me feel special.
Let me hum a tune, a melody of beautiful silence.
Let the sun shine on me and make me feel special.
**The sun is shining on me, because I am special.
Daughter Oct 2014
I wanna throw up all the feelings you just shoved down my throat.
All the guilt and confusion.
The loneliness and lost time.
I'm gagging on the pain and all of those hateful thoughts.
They're filling me up and making me sick.
The thought that you're done with me is slowly seeping into my bloodstream and slowing my heart. It's beating so softly trying to push through your crushing grip around my neck.
The cold words dripping from your mouth are turning me pale and all I need is your warm body to wake me from this nightmare you have so perfectly orchestrated right in front of my tear blurred eyes but that soft morning will never come because you have left and you are gone and I am here still watching the limbs of my body begin to finally realize that they are never again to be touched by yours in that familiar and loving way

So I will sleep with every intention of finding you tonight somewhere in my memories and wishing only to find you here in my bed when tomorrow comes.
Daughter Nov 2018
At what point does something become unforgivable?
Is it the moment when all hope is lost?
When you strip the comfort of forever from an innocent mind?
When u fall so hard you shatter the ground those around u are standing on,
When you take the last breath of love from your lovers chest,
When you steal the beating heart from a sacred and beautiful bond,
When you fraternize with the enemy of your beloved for reasons unknown to all involved,
Is it when you reach your hand into the bowl of trust and leave nothing but ***** fingerprints?
Where is there to go when you’ve built walls of slippery vines
surrounding you,
suffocating you.
Who do you ask for help without bringing them down with you?
Misery loves company but no one loves misery.
Daughter Apr 2016
I was at the doctor yesterday and they weighed me
nothing unordinary obviously
but seeing i was just a few pounds less than i thought i would be
brought some sort of strange flutter to my stomach that sat there
for the next few minutes
distracting from the fact
that i was at the doctor
Daughter Mar 2014
Just because you spoke my name in a new way does not mean that it is yours
You held my hand and broke my heart with similar intentions

Yet here you are in my mind and on my lips even though
I'm pretty sure I let go of you months ago

I've held the ribs of new souls and we did things I learned to do with you
But I can't seem to smudge away your finger traced lines encircling my body
I remind myself of the things I said I would never do
And giving into you was recently added

Yet here you are on my mind and in my bed
How you escaped my traps of getting rid of you I'll never know
All I ever wanted was to memorize your heart beat and have that tune beside me for as long as I could still hear

Sometimes I cant remember what it sounds like and those are days I breath new air
But it's nights like right now
Where all I can hear is my own heart
And it sounds an awful lot like yours
Daughter Nov 2012
I'm angry that I gave you so much.
You took and you take
I was bought by your touch.
Days leaked by, me loving you.
A day too long came too soon.
A heart for a heart, piece by piece
Ink from my soul, I slowly release.
Year to year I stayed in your gaze.
A shadow to the side, without delays.
You stopped your outflow, soaking me up.
A sponge of lust to fill your cup.
A taker of light, a heart wrenching theft.
How can I let go, with nothing left?
Daughter Oct 2012
A princess made of bubbles.
Flowers open to reveal
a world
where the ants congregate.

Light drips and pours                                                            ­                                                                 ­             
little rivers through trees that grow pockets, holding dust                                                             ­                 
that makes you sneeze sparkle streaks.                                                         ­                                                       

Watch out for the grass that looks too green.
It'll tickle your little feet.
The purple fields are much nicer.
As soft as the lime green grizzly who lives in the cave
made of quartz.

Lay down.                                                            ­                                                                 ­                                   
Listen to the song of                                                               ­                                                                 ­                
Kistin.                                                         ­                                                                 ­                                              
The king, the leader.                                                          ­                                                                 ­                   
The buffalo who keeps the peace                                                            ­                                                              
and keeps it all in the pretend.
Daughter Dec 2013
Missing links
In the chains of our lives
Almost a whole
With a few holes

You are my holes
You and your body
Your eyes lips and hair
Your hands ears and back

What if you came back
Would it be what I know
Our slow warm and familiar love
Like not a single day apart had passed

I cannot focus on the past
When I saw you my mouth would water
When I think of you my eyes still water
Distance in mind and body

You were my beloved somebody
I was your beloved somebody
We had inseparable bodies
I need to forget your body
Daughter May 2013
Stay awake with me
Pretend we're side by side
Smell my hair as I lay my head in the middle of your chest
Ill cross my leg over yours
To get as close as I can
To remind me that you're not going anywhere
Wrap your arm around my body
Rub your thumb up and down the skin of my side as you hold the small of my waist
I'll slide my hand down the side of your face
And feel the scruff off your week old beard
I'll kiss your cheek and breath on your neck
And I'll squeeze your hand to make sure you
stay awake with me
Pretend we're side by side
So I know it'll be okay
Daughter May 2013
You stepped off this earthly dirt too many days too soon.
A brightly shining light burnt out, at quarter till noon.
A fortunate few there to say goodbye
to hold your hand, to sit and cry.
But why?
Why today, why right now
Why is it that your beating life was something nature wouldn't allow
to carry on and flourish
You had a soul to nourish.
So much future cut short
Do not abandon do not abort
this mission you've been given
Please, give us something to believe in...

But I guess it is too late
This sad truth has been fate
All along, your song
Would end.
Now to mend, the hearts that are still here, my dear.
I hear the best cure is time, so I'll sit and I'll wait
And remember this date.
As a day to remember your life and your love
To hope somewhere you're peaceful. Somewhere above.
R.I.P my dear friend, I will never forget all you were and still continue to affect in this world.
Daughter Nov 2015
Im not picking at my scabs anymore.
They were right there always in sight.
Seeing the blood well up into that single drop was always somewhat
satisfying.
Watching my body react
But then I was always left with more time
More time waiting for it to heal
Its time.
Its time I let it heal now.
For good.
The scar will always be there, but no longer there to be reopened
It will never be able to bleed again.
So I don't think Im going to call you anymore.
Im not picking at my scabs anymore.
Daughter Mar 2014
The lies you told between our lips
Her skin's touch between our hands
Defining secrets between our gazes
Our clothes between our bare bodies
Unforgettable truths between our minds
Broken promises between our hearts
A hard earned love split in half by easily made mistakes
Daughter Apr 2013
I can't tell you how badly I want to kiss your lips.
I could never explain how much I want your hand to run up my back
once more.
Guiding me straight to your heart.
If I could have just one last moment,
I wouldn't be able to show you
how quickly you make me fall in love.
Because you are poison
and I am a sea.
Every drop of my body has been tainted
with what used to be.
Daughter May 2013
I breath you in like a drag on an old cigarette
One I've kept in the pocket of my favorite jean jacket
Always there in case of emergency
You fill my lungs with thick smoke, clouding my judgment of what's good for me
And what's not.

I drink you down like golden tequila
Quick and stinging as you glide down my throat with that numbing burn
You taste so warm in my empty stomach
Where you sit and wait
Until you seep up to my brain  
After a bad night's sleep

I swallow you whole
You're my little white pill.
You lay me down to bed
Only to find I feel nothing but everything I wanted to forget

I regret your touch and the grasp you hold inside
Let go of these weary veins
Let these eyes fall to sleep without your heavy shadows
I kiss you goodnight one last time
And tell myself I am good and fine
Daughter May 2013
When you know what's in my mind,
you crawl into my ears and whisper the sweet nothings of your lust
You reach yourself into my eyes and hide what you do not want me to see
You kiss the veins of my heart and your wicked love pumps through my body
And I am your captive
And forever will be until you set me free
You let me go, and give my tired thoughts
and worries back to me.
Daughter Mar 2013
Crawl into my sheets
Lay parallel to me.
I want to forget which limbs are mine
and get lost in the tangled mess of
our bodies.
I want you to remind me of the
hidden spots you like to touch.
Those places, plain and ordinary to
any others' fingertips.
I want to feel your chest push against
me as you breathe in a morning
of a night warmly slept.
Pull the strands of lonely hairs away
from the corners of my mouth
And kiss my lips
Make sure you are the first word
on my tongue.
So that you linger in my breath
for the day to come.
Daughter May 2013
The stars in the sky shine
One for ever breath taking moment
I had but a few
Before I met you

The clouds in the sky gather
For every tear filled night
Only a sprinkle or two
Before I met you

The flowers in the fields grow
A petal for every smile filled laughter
A couple would do
Before I met you

For every bright star lit, a cloud to hide behind.
For every stormy night,
A flower to bloom.

You light up my night's sky.
You flood my mind.
And drip petals from my awakened body.

— The End —