I have many problems in life
What to eat
What to wear

But my main problem
My main problem is that I Care

I care about my car
But I don't care about me
I care about my grades
But I don't care about me

I care about my parents
But I don't care about me

I love and care those I call my friend
But I don't care about me

I care
But I don't care about me

My car can't care about me
My grades don't give a **** about me

My parents have four others
To care for before me

My friends have their own life
And people to care about

And this I understand

But I don't understand
Why each and every day
I put myself through Hell
And I don't know if I'll make it back

And I do that for all these things
These people
Because I care

I care that they make it through
I care that they are alright

So I care for all of these people
But I don't care about me

thoughts turned into words
words turned into actions
actions turned into moments
moments turned into memories
memories that were once just thoughts
turned into forgotten stories

Fear is a Gift
It taught me to run
It taught me there are things worse than stress

Fear is a gift
Because when I'm running away from my worries
Because when I'm afraid of what might come

Fear reminds me
I'm still alive
I'm still breathing

Fear is a gift
Because somewhere deep down
Fear reminds me
I'm still human

This Stress is killing me
No time to think
No time to breathe

This Stress is stronger than me
Holds me down with chains
Why can't I break free

This Stress

This Stress
It has killed me
No human left
All that remains is machine

Keep it together
That's all you ever do
Say you have a breaking point
But you know that isn't true

Fake emotions all the time
That's why you never really cry

Pretend that you can assoicate
Last time you could was when you were eight

Now you are an outsider
And you're better off because you are

Everything happens for a reason
I didn't know how right you were
If I had known an injury is what it would take
I would have injured myself long ago

To know that you would call me a friend once more
Brings joy to my heart

And I'm sorry for the time
We weren't friends
For the wrongs I committed
And I pray that one day you might forgive me

But now that we're friends
I want to hear about your day
And the things that make you happy

I hope that one day we might become more
That we would call each other
Brother and Sister

More so than anything else
I promise
I will always be there for you
No matter what