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They will not be the same next time. The sayings
so cute, just slightly off, will be corrected.
Their eyes will be more skeptical, plugged in
the more securely to the worldly buzz
of television, alphabet, and street talk,
culture polluting their gazes' dawn blue.
It makes you see at last the value of
those boring aunts and neighbors (their smells
of summer sweat and cigarettes, their faces
like shapes of sky between shade-giving leaves)
who knew you from the start, when you were zero,
cooing their nothings before you could be bored
or knew a name, not even you own, or how
this world brave with hellos turns all goodbye.
Say what you mean,
but say it without being mean.
Who am I kidding? I am always so terribly mean. Oops!
stay and brave the storm
or to roam
into oblivion
i’m sitting at my kitchen table
in my home
that is no longer my home

real or not real?

sitting across from me
is my mom
my mom left this world
six years ago

real or not real?

she takes a sip of her tea
as i sip mine
and she speaks

real or not real?

she tells me she is “in-between”
she can still see things
from the other side
even though i can’t

real or not real?

i tell her
i can feel her presence
when she isn’t there

real or not real?

she looks me in the eyes
and nods
smiling,
knowingly

real or not real?

I blurt out a question
that’s been burning inside me
“how did you die?”

real or not real?

she gathers herself
as if already expecting
this question
to come

real or not real?

“i woke up choking,
there was a light.
Then everything stopped."

real or not real?

i open my eyes
back in my room
i had been sleeping.
but had i been dreaming??
I feel it surround me
holding me in my place.
It hovers around me
like humidity on a hot day.

I take deep breaths
but that never seems to help.
I try not to succumb but the
deep
burning
anger
envelopes me until I see red.
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