Why do we do what we do?
Is someone forcing us?
Is it by nature that human beings strive for a reason of existence?

Are we the dominant species of the planet?
Or are a select few who dominate us?
The ones in power, the ones up there.

Why are the rules set?
Who set those rules in the first place?
As a kid – go to school.
As an adult - go to work.

Why do we limit ourselves like this?

Will I ever rebel?
Probably not.
I enjoy living by these rules,
I like these rules,
They make me feel safe.

The day is over,
The sweat is dry,
Eyelids won’t open,
I cannot try;

My back is aching,
And my feet burn,
Driving back home,
Look what I earn;

The day is over,
The air is cool,
And I remember,
I still have school;

****.

Looking into the mirror,
But I can't see myself,
All I can see is horror;

My face is ******,
And full of bruises,
But I feel no pain,
Not physical at least;

I see a tear,
rolling down my face,
It is not sorrow,
But it's relief;

We all go around the day,
We are all on our way,
Some are to work,
Some are to school,
We are all part of a bigger picture;

I’m just a fragment,
And you are so too,
Our lives are together,
A part of the matter;

We have been taught,
Alone we are worthless,
We have been moulded,
To fit into the system,
But this is no way,
To reach our full potential;

This is a prison,
Guarded by bureaucracy,
And funded by those in power,
We gave up our freedom,
For a little bit of money;

Whenever I’m lost,
Whenever I fall,
I look for you,
My lighthouse in night;

You shine brighter,
When it is dark,
Always there,
To guide me to safety;

Whenever I’m alone,
And nowhere to go,
I look for you,
And run into your arms;

You are my anchor,
My point of reference,
Never waiver,
Always guiding;

Everything has a cycle,
Everything has an end,
But where did it start,
And where will it end;

Flowers bloom,
Then they dry up,
They produce seeds,
And so it proceeds;

No way to know,
How it all started,
Nowhere to find,
The answers we seek;

We might ask god,
We might ask science,
But so far,
We have no answers;

We dig deeper into the seed,
We find it to be interesting,
And get some answers,
But along with that,
We get more questions;

We see the cells,
Moving around,
They all have a purpose,
To keep life abound;

We dig and dig,
The more answers – the more questions,
When will it end?
When will we know all?

We’re so far away,
You’re just a speck of light,
The distance is monstrous,
But I found you;

I searched long and wide,
I never lost hope,
I looked towards the light,
Through the Hubble telescope;

There you were,
Awaiting discovery,
No one knew,
You were to be found by me;

A ball of gas,
Around a sun,
Round you go,
Blinking every time you pass;

May your special day be filled with happiness,
May you get all you crave,
I know that I drive you up the wall,
But I do it out of love;

You are great,
You are love,
That is the trait,
That comes from above;

You always push forward,
And work tirelessly,
I never figured,
That it was all for me;

Almost the end of May,
And you’ve given me so much,
But today is your day,
So enjoy it to the full;

We protect the women,
We defend equality,
We are the beacon,
Of life with quality;

We give hope to the emarginated,
We provide a voice for the silent,
Our goal is to balance,
And to oppress the violent;

We instigate thought,
We promote stability,
We educate,
This is our reality;

You ask me,
I say “Nothing”,
That is the key,
I’m just rushing;

I think of the sea,
And of the sky,
I think of the bee,
That’s on the pie;

I think of the stars,
And how they move,
I think of the bars,
When I’m in the groove;

I think of nature,
And how it grows,
I think of the flavour,
Of something that’s gross;

“What’s on my mind?” You ask,
“Nothing” I say,
That’s just my mask,
It’s just a play;

I open my arms with acceptance,
With every minute that passes,
I get feelings of spring,
So I can merge with your masses;

As distant as the sky,
As blue as the sea,
You wide green field,
Only you I am eager to see.

You were razed,
To hate my kind,
You broke the prejudice,
You’re not blind;

You don’t trust me,
And I get it,
You barely know me,
Or just a bit;

You confided in me,
You know I’m here,
For anything you need,
For anything you fear;

I’ll get to the inner circle,
One way or another,
I’m patient like that,
I feel like a brother;

The spider,
Is hanging by a thread,
He made it himself,
What's going through his head?

He doesn't think,
How fragile it is,
A little wind,
Will be the death of him.

I could hug you,
I could hold you,
Only if I was closer;

I could feel you,
I could kiss you,
Only if I was closer;

My heart beats for you,
My soul screams for you,
I need your presence,
In my life;

Ever since we met,
I felt fulfilled,
The closer we get,
Our friendship we build;

I was stuck in a dark alley,
That led to nowhere,
I didn’t like it,
It wasn’t fair;

I looked around,
Searched for ages,
To find a way,
To get better wages;

Finally it’s here,
Finally I found it,
New road ahead,
In which I can fit;

I hope that this time,
I settle on this road,
And find my way,
To the top of the node.

No more questions,
No more requests,
You’re wearing me down,
I’m failing all my tests.

I had hopes,
I had dreams,
Thanks to this life,
None remains.

Society wants,
Society needs,
That’s all a waste,
But life proceeds.

Everyone wants me to behave,
While destroying my dream,
I need to live,
I just want to scream.

Is it so wrong?
That I don’t want,
What society provides,
It’s just a taunt.

Am I in the wrong?

I’m not healthy,
I’m not strong,
I run – I cough,
It feels so wrong;

I used to run,
For hours on end,
I started smoking,
Just to feel cool;

Now no more;

I eat and drink,
And then some more,
Cannot reach,
My feet anymore;

I will move,
I will diet,
Not for the looks,
It’s all for health;

I need self-control,
I need support.

Dark as the moon lit night,
Fragile as a flower,
I love you as a sister,
I hold you as my child.

I hold you,
I hug you,
you scratch me,
no reason to.

I still love you,
even though you brought me grief.

Love you Dixie

Huddle on a sofa,
Watching some TV,
Reading a book,
With a cup of tea;

The wind is blowing,
The hail is thumping against the windows,
Lightning and thunder light up the house,
I thank the god that I am indoors;

Wood burning,
Fire crackling,
The smell of oak
Is so relaxing;

This is what makes my house a home,
This is what fills my heart with hope;

Still sick and tired,
My neck hurts like hell,
My eyes feel fired,
I just want to yell;

The inbox is full,
Need to respond,
To all the emails,
That have spawned;

Greeting colleagues,
Happy to meet again,
Now back to work,
Is this humane?

*Happy Working!

No more tree,
No more lights,
Don’t you agree?
We miss the nights.

The house is empty,
No more embellished,
Everything was hefty,
Still smell the meat was relished.

Can’t hear the bells,
Neither the music,
Nothing else dwells.

An empty dwelling,
That’s all the remains,
There’s no foretelling,
What where the gains.

Two sizes more,
Feel like a boar,
My **** is sore,
Need to run for.

What did I do,
To deserve you?
Why should I be the one,
To call you mom?

Did I lead a perfect previous faith?
Am I a reincarnated saint?

Neither, I am just lucky,
I was brewed in your tummy;

All I know about you,
Is that I am grateful,
That you make my life,
So full;

Being your son,
Is what I do best,
Even if,
I am such a pest;

I love you mom;

You accepted me,
for who I am,
you chose me,
over anyone else;

you are my brother,
I never had,
I need your action,
Where ever I am;

I made you angry,
I made you sad,
You stayed along,
The entire way;

There is no word,
to describe your soul,
All I can say I love you all.

Her eyes are dark,
Like the abyss,
Her Hair is black,
She’s such a bliss;

Lips like cherry,
I’d love to kiss,
And her cheeks,
You wouldn't miss;

I searched for you all my life,
Tried to take you as my wife;

As wild as a tiger,
As fierce as a gale,
Tried to tame you,
To no avail;

Gave you my heart,
Gave you my mind,
You wanted none,
Of what I provide;

You ran away,
I let you slip,
You left me alone,
Biting my lip;

My journey proceeds,
Searching without rest,
I never waver,
From my quest;

Looking around like a bee,
On the search for honey;

I was alone,
I was sad,
You saved my life,
You saved my head;

A dark ally,
Need a fresh start,
Built a brick wall,
Around my heart;

You came along,
And made me smile,
You where ready,
For an extra mile;

You gave me hope,
You made me warm,
And made my house,
Feel like a home;

You made me trust,
And got me comfortable,
But then you hurt me,
I was so gullible;

They steal,
They loot,
They always,
Keep the boot;

They never thank,
They never fee,
For the things,
That should be free;

They steel from the rich,
They take from the wealthy,
While they protect,
Their Identity;

Their opinion,
Is not like ours,
They only think,
They’re all just harmless;

They pirate apps,
And movies too,
Keep entertainment,
That’s what they do;

I'm glad that we spoke,
I'm happy that we're clear,
Now we know where we stand;

Our friendship is warm,
Our chats are fuzzy,
You understand,
That we are friends;

My feelings for you,
Are mostly respect and enjoyment,
Our love is agape,
But I never had a better friend.
Never more than that;

I’m glad that we are on the same page,

Shut up,
Shut the f%&k; up;

You annoy me,
You Disturb me,
Stop even talking;

You smell like crap,
Your voice is monotonous,
Your words are empty,
Stop doing all the fuss;

Yes you are bright,
You are also outgoing,
just don't do it with me;

Every day,
Every night,
We chat – we speak,
We never fight;

Is this marriage?
Is this love?
It’s neither,
We just met online;

We chat every day,
Every spare minute I spend with you;

At work I think,
In bed I dream,
You fill the empty,
That’s in my heart;

Is this marriage?
Is this love?
It’s neither,
We just met online;

You made me laugh,
You made me smile,
You made me curious,
And also cry;

We respect,
We converse,
We feel good,
When we do this;

Is this marriage?
Is this love?
It’s neither,
We just met online;

We are close together,
And yet so far away,
We share thoughts,
We share secrets,
Yet we don’t know,
What each of us smells like;

I can dream,
I can hope,
That we’ll someday,
Meet and hug;

Is this marriage?
Is this love?
No it’s not,
At least not yet;

Running in the woods,
Chasing prey,
Ruling the forest,
These things no more;

They came with guns,
And shot their stuns;

Woke up in a cage,
Nowhere to run,
Barely any space,
To get some fun;

They came with sticks,
And sharpened spikes,
Pushing and stabbing,
Making me do stunts;

People cheer,
Lights so bright,
Haven’t had a proper meal,
I cannot fight;

Fur starts to fall,
Eyes start to dull,
No more strength,
To perform;

While in my cage,
My tiny kingdom,
People came in,
Am I free?

The men had spikes,
That shined in light,
A gun pointed at me,
Is this really my flight?

I lie in my bed, alone,
Only you are on my mind,
I hope you think of me as well,
As much as I think of you;

I sit at my desk,
Skype on all the time,
Waiting for you,
To come back online;

Last message I sent,
Was an hour ago,
I’m sick of waiting,
But where would I go;

I receive a message,
And my heart skips a beat,
Words full of sweetness,
Start shuffling in my seat;

I want to tell you something,
But I’m scared of what would come,
You could get scared,
You could be hurt,
I can’t lose you,
You are priceless to me;
We chat along,
As real good friends,
The secrets I keep,
Are clawing at me;

Pretend I have none to say,
Pretend all is cool,
I’m screaming,
I’m feeling,
My tears fill a pool;

Time to sleep,
Time to leave,
I hug my pillow hard,
Pretend that it’s you,
I’m just a fool,
Trying not to heave;

This is my never ending cycle,
My feelings never changing;

I can barely breathe,
I can’t even speak,
My head is spinning,
I’m feeling so weak;

Manager wants me gone,
Colleagues want me away,
I don’t feel too good,
So I can’t stay;

Driving back home,
Sneezing all the way,
My head is spinning,
All through the day;

The sun in my eyes,
I cannot see,
Nothing can help me,
Not even the sea;

I’m on my bed,
Facing the sky,
I hear my wheezing,
I’m gonna’ die;

I don’t remember giving you permission,
Even if I did, I was too young.

No please, I don’t want to,
I won’t show you, not again.

My mother told me to go to the man,
He will clean me from inside,
Is this what cleaning is?
Is this supposed to be?
If anything I feel dirtier,
I can’t stand the site of me.

I am covered in filth

Away friend, you shouldn't despair;
Away friend, you shouldn’t be scared;
I am here for you now.

Time ago I was scared too;
Time ago I was alone;
But I got through it;
I survived.

This time I am here for you;
This time you are not alone;
I am here to stay;
FOREVER.