Fear had me tied down.
Things I should have said to you,
Now it is too late.

A cruel mistress is she.
Leaving men to die,
waiting for no mortal.
She will never slow down.
She can never be stopped.
We're able to track her,
but that's just it...
Must be lonely.

Do you know how much it kills?
How much it kills inside?
It burns daily like a branding iron that won't let up.
Wanting to say how I really feel about you,
But can't.

The voices.
The people.
Screaming, shouting, howling I'm not.
And there I sit.
Taking the hits.
Trying to figure my wrongs.
I like awake at night,
figuring out how to be.....
Perfect!
Their words dig like needles.
Please just leave me alone, I'm trying here.
I'm trying.
I'm surrounded.
I'm on my knees, begging for them to stop.
Begging them to stop the torment.
Begging them to let me be.
My mind races.
Memories of my past begin to fade.
They fade into the unknown until,
I see her face.
And as we locked eyes, she told me.
She told me I was.....
Perfect.
She saw what no one else saw.
I take a big deep breath, plant my feet, and shout...
NO!!!!
I.
AM.
NOT.
PERFECT!!!
My flaws are what makes me me.
I'm not perfect.
Perfection is an impossibility.
Yes, I'm not perfect, far from.
But to me....
To me I'm just fine.

I am lost.
My mind is now lost.
Help is always there,
but I'm scared for it.
I'm scared of what they'll say,
what they'll think.
I've truly lost myself.
"Always love yourself then others will love you too."
I HATE myself right now.
That voice telling me to quit knows he won.
I keep ******* up.
The more I **** up,
the deeper my grave is.
The deeper my grave is,
the more lost I get.
Hello?
Please, wherever you are.
I need a light.
I need to know things will be fine.
I'm scared.
Please answer me.
I need....




Help!

"In the deed, the glory!" he cried out.
Knowing full well those would be his last words.
His Alma Mater of Nebraska will here his cry,
and in one voice we stand and shout, "In the deed the glory!"
He ran and charged the line for his brother,
telling him "You're not dying here!"
Bombs going off and thus, they were surrounded by flames,
with no one around them, not even their planes.
They fought for what seemed like days until,
"Bam!" Explosions. "Voom!" Hell fire came crashing down.
Both weak from fighting that they accepted their fates,
that they were going to die on the battlefield, with each other, side by side.
They both gave out one last "Oorah!" and were engulfed in flames.
The two met up in Hell with three others.
It's true what they say, "Marines don't die, they just go to Hell to regroup."
They didn't stay long, for a bright light shone from above.
An angel appeared before them and grabbed their arms and flew them away.
The angel said, "You've already spent time in Hell, time to come to Heaven."
"We respectfully decline." The marine said, "We still have work to do."
The angel understood and gave each of them a kiss.
All five marines woke up in in hospital beds in pain, but they looked at
one another and started to laugh.
"We're going home!"
In the deed, the glory.

We spend almost our whole life
trying to figure everything out instead
of enjoying what we have. It's not until
you're on your deathbed that you finally
realize what your life was all about. But by
then it's too late. We don't realize how precious
life is anymore. We try to find a further meaning.
We seem to forget that your life is exactly that.
YOURS!!
No one else. What you do with your life is all up
to you. You can be guided. You can receive help.
But it all comes down to it being your choice.
You don't even have to read all this.
But if you do, I can only give you advice.
And my biggest advice that I've come to listen
to with my life is simple, especially when
things are getting out of hand and stress overwhelms me;
Stop whatever you're doing.
Take a step backwards,
take 5 deep breaths,
then look up at the sky
and close your eyes.
Think about where your life is at.
Think of friends
and everyone who has been with you in your journey so far.
You're never alone.
So I say again:
We spend almost our entire life
trying to figure out our lives when in reality,
you need to enjoy it.
Start enjoying your life.
You deserve it.