Hey There,

So I just read your long awaited for self
Reserve that we all hold ourselves to.  
I mean this in the most sincere way,
Congratulations.  

You are right in more ways than one,

But I hope that you see that it all blurs
Together under the sun.
I know how hard it is,
Suicidal thoughts aren't fun.  
I've lived through too many of them myself
But it's only when you decide to
Take your life off the shelf
Begin to bend in it's ways
You gaze in a daze
Because out of this moment infinity stays

And from me to you right now
You're the one that I praise
And I thank you for the reason
To see it past the rainy season

So I have to say thanks
For making a stink
It really got me to think
On behalf of those upon the brink
Who don't want to see a shrink

See through my eyes
Then only realize
You've only got to blink.

It's hard to believe it's been a year
You're gone but I still feel that you're near
Sometimes I delusionally still think you might just appear
The water begins to build up and form a tear
But I don't want the sadness released into the atmosphere

Great is the only way you could be
All the good that you showed me
Opened my eyes so that I could see
The depth and vastness of life and love

I remember sitting in church
Like a bird on a branch of birch
The power and depth in your voice
Told me that life is a gift, that we have a choice
And it's better to chose to live a life of rejoice

It's sad but it's true
The world isn't the same without you
And that's something I'll never get used to
But you gave me the courage to pursue and pull through
You gave insights that led me to a new world view
You will stay with me forever, just like a tatoo

This is only a small part of the story
Of a great man who rests in his glory

I needed to pull myself out of a dark place
I decided that my thoughts would be my ace
Close my eyes and I only hear saving grace

Keep going, I can feel you want to quit
Forget the past and remember the torch is already lit
Don't be divided by the seven ten split
Just be mindful of the one you decide to hit

The choice is yours
Life is exciting or it bores
At times it whispers
At times it roars
At times it's an eagle and it soars

I come down to land
And think it's grand
To see my world in my hand

Yet slightly out of grasp
When things go wrong I no longer gasp
I'll stop and say


Hey


I'll look for a better day

I feel like I'm walking on a cloud
Nothing else matters, I keep silent and move on
Day dreams and vivid visions
Suddenly disappear from forthcoming decisions
And with a crack reality instantly snaps back
I make up my mind
Saying to myself am I half blind
Then I disappear again
Off in my own head
Thinking about what should have been said
I realize it's not a debt
So I allow myself to forget

I feel like I'm walking across hot coals
That those that get ahead do so by trampling over souls
Contempt for those who got there without putting in the work
The question drives me berzerk
Social implications keep mounting my frustrations
I don't follow the pack and foster my own creations
Completely alone
I feel like a king upon a thrown that isn't his own
Without a care I stop and stare
Only to realize that there's nothing there

Oh
Sorry
It was just another dream

I have a guardian angel
Through the chaos it guides me
It's a brave child saving a cat stranded in a tree
I climb to these heights
Then it helps me safetly land from the flights
Occasionally I make stupid decisions
But it rescues me with amazing improvisions
It just watches
It doesn't pry
It just knows
Like the all seeing eye
In trouble time and time again
It's always there
It's a life long friend
I hope I get to thank you when my life comes to an end

A box sits on the roadside
Ordinary looking, but another world on the inside
Don't judge a box by it's looks
Just as you shouldn't do with books
How vast the contents held within
To let them go to waste would be a sin
But I don't take them, I leave them for others
How astounding the world when black and white suddenly turns to colors
Wouldn't it be cool if they went to a school
Inspire minds of all kinds
Showing how kowledge can be a tool
And so much more
From history, math, to adventures of all kinds on a shore
It enlivens me so much
I guess I'll think about it once more

Deeper into the rabbit hole I go
Listen to the babble,
It tells more than you know
A story, a fable, a majestic broadway show
I'm spiraling
I'm awake
Cracking the ground around me like an earth quake
You feel it in your toes
You can smell it in your nose
All of a sudden time gradually slows
Until the moment has become completely froze
You sit there and ponder
How did my thoughts wander
In this moment here
There's absolutely nothing to fear
I haven't quite figured out
Is there a method to my madness
Or a madness to my method?
The movement is fluid
All knowing like a druid
With Ayn Rand in my hand
I feel the power to withstand the unplanned
I let go of the demand
And sink into the sand
Onward I go
In hopes to find the end
Always saying just one more bend
Yet deeper I still go into the hole
Then I think
Maybe I'm not following a rabbit
Maybe it's a mole