I'm sleeping in a cold bed
and waking up in cold sweats
There's something in the back of my head
that I can't shake
that I can't change
Five minutes have turned to hours
And lately I feel powerless
But the one thing that couldn't change
Was you
And I did not account for this
That being in love was such a mess
But distance ain't a death sentence
So I'll serve my time
Tears mainlined
And I’ll see you on the other side
I'm kneeling on a tile floor
Realizing that you’re worth more
Countless hours where we talked face to face
Can’t be spent in vain
We’re blood from the same vein
You could be dead
and I’d hardly know the difference
without your touch
to remind me of all we've done
And I could die here
waiting for the Amtrak to come
But I’ll stick it out
We’ll stick it out
…
It’s funny that I have to rewrite old songs
because I never finished them
the way I finished us.
What a mistake.
Victory songs become white flags.
Every ending is a new beginning —
****
that
I wish I ended this before I ended us.
Sudden clarity in wake of settled dust.
I laid this song to rest for months. We never had an official song
and I didn’t want to settle for anything less than perfection. I thought you'd listen to this for every day for the rest of our lives. I was wrong.