I've been abused,
I've been used.
Found out that my "dad", wasn't really my dad.
At age 5, seen a guy get shot and killed.
Seen my "dad" hold a gun to my moms head.
Thought of suicide multiple times.
Been through hell and back.
I'm broken, you can say.
We all have our stories and are broken in some way.

What am I supposed to do?
Am I inlove with you?
I'm not sure,
I don't quite understand the meaning of love.
You say you love me, you care for me..
But how can I be sure...
You treat me like ****..
You have changed, we have changed..
I don't think this will work..
I worry day and night, wondering if you'll be alright.
I just want to cry..
This is not how relationships are supposed to be..

I would wake in fright,
Screaming your name.
Daddy!?! Daddy!?!
Where are you?!?
But you never came...
As the years grew,
I called your name less.
Knew you didn't care,
You never did,
And never will.

The lights flicker
I see a blade in my hand
Not only a blade
A blade of Scarlet red
And a young girl lays there at her desk
Stabbed through the heart
And her throat ripped apart
I stole her soul
She's dead
Now I'm going to move to my next victim
I'm going to knock down your door
So you know I'm coming
Because you're my next victim
And I plan on stalking you
I'm going to ruin your life
I am going to go to your school
Pretend to be a student and torture you
I'll be everywhere
Even in your dreams
I'm going to make you miserable
Like all my victims

If only you could see yourself through my eyes,
Then you'll be able to see what you mean to me.
You'll see that I love you dearly, I cherish everything about you.
I love your smile,
The sound of your laughter,
The way your eyes sparkle with happiness,
All your little dumb jokes.
It drives me crazy when I'm away from you,
It drives me crazy when I'm with you,
But I wouldn't have it any other way.
I love everything about you.

I just want to spread my wings,
And fly,
Far far away.
Soar like a bird,
Through the sky.
The wind washes over me,
As I gulp in FREEDOM!!!!!!

I loved you once,
Always have,
Always will.

"Who are you?"
Those words pierce through me like knives in my heart.
Wish I could help you remember.
You are different now.
I do not recognize you, even though I "know" you.
I don't understand how you can be so close to someone and then they not have a clue as to who you are.
It's so painful.
I hope I will get you back.
Things will never be the same.
I don't want to lose you...again..
I want to help...
But how?!?

Everything feels so unreal,
It feels like I'm in a dream that,
I can't wake up from.
The only thing that feels real,
Is the pain I feel.
I'm a lost soul trying to find that light.
I go day by day as if I'm invisible
To everyone around me.
I don't feel connected to this world,
Like I'm supposed to.
I tend to find myself gazing off,
Thinking of some place better.
I have a tendency of blocking everything out,
Leaving me all alone with my thoughts and inner demons.
I feel so misplaced and misunderstood.
I feel like no matter how much I try it don't try,
Everything always backfires on me.
Sometimes it feels like its peoples' mission to break me down and destroy me.

There once was a girl,
She was sweet as can be.
But no one knew that this girl used to get beat.
All they could see was her act of "happiness."
She had a dark painful past.
That no one knew about.
Until one day, she finally broke down.
She trusted them, told them everything.
They told her that everything will be okay. And that they'll never leave.
But....they left her....all alone..
She cares too much, and yet she gets hurt the most.
She tries to trust people, tries to see the good in everyone.
But, it doesn't work how she wants.
She is trapped in a prison in her own mind and body.
She wonders if she'll ever escape.
Every corner she turns, is another dark hole.
She jumps in, hoping to find a way out.
Instead, she just sinks deeper
It's just a big confusing hazy maze that never ends.
There is no escape...

I was a lost broken soul,
Living in my own miserable world.
Drifting from place to place,
Couldn't keep up with the pace,
Of all the chaos around me.
Then he came along,
He was like no other.
My own knight in shining armor,
But his armor wasn't so bright.
It was dark like my soul, for he too had a dark past.
He brightens up my day.
His eyes glimmer with happiness.
His heart beats with love for me.
Our souls become one, when we are together.
He is my world, nothing else matters.
We mend each others hearts.
He makes me whole, makes me feel special.
I feel like I can take on the world,
With him by my side.
He is my Joker, and I'm his Harley Quinn.
Together we can win this battle.

You're the light to my day
The stars to my night
My last thought,
As I lay my head to rest
The first breath,
As I awake.