Dear girlfriend am sorry for being a man
Am sorry I wasn't there to change God's plan
So when He made this piece of hardware,
called it "man"
And installed it's supporting drivers of emotions,
to rely on a constant database update from your
repository of respect and value,
It was obvious
That only then can your heart
ping my love server.

Dear girlfriend am sorry for being your man
Am sorry for not being able to meet your demands
You see,
It is true that you, like every other lady,
Wants a hero to bank on
One to keep you safe, with a shoulder to cry on
But then,
It's a shame I couldn't afford
the attention you needed and so deserved
So in trying, I only scattered your heart abroad

Dear girlfriend am sorry
For not bringing out the Queen in you
Cause after so many failed attempts,
The peasant mind of me thinks,
Maybe I wasn't meant to be a king afterall
Maybe I should never have walked to you,
Standing up tall
Maybe the only thing I was ever meant to say,
Was sorry, dear girlfriend
For not bringing out the Queen in you.

Dear girlfriend am sorry for being the man
Who made you feel
I was just like any other man
Dear girlfriend am sorry, I tried my best
To be of little difference, from the rest
Dear girlfriend am sorry
you failed to understand
I could only do so much with
A heart and my hand
Am just a man
And ordinary man
And a weak one at that
Am sorry dear girlfriend
Cause if ever I had an offer to make
It would be a heart, with a prayer that
Even with it's weakness,
You ignore and take.

I sat back there, pictured you from the rare and I couldn't help but wonder how to reach you from here.
For a second I almost got carried away by your back side but immediately slapped me in the conscience less I backslide.
You see I have this thing for beauty in its 3d vector graphic state, the very type for which a man could take any and every bait
There's force pushing me to make history and perhaps, set a memorial for generations to come, such force that could wake up a man to the reality of beauty accompanied by a compelling readiness to  defend, Simply put;
Can I Love You?

I must confess, I had a rather blurry vision
Of what seemed to be passion but turned out to be an illusion.
Like... what a beautiful rose, maybe I plug  me a branch, to smell closer  and perhaps even better;
But to think that it withers and dies on exposure to sun rays scares every curiosity to advance closer than I could treasure this beauty and still have me a precious rose tree in its purity; so from a distance, with no intentions of crossing a line, this is me respecting your dignity when I ask...
Can I Love you?

Can I get to know you, exceptionally?
I mean, get close to, and perhaps, inside your heart without touching your body;
Can I get lost, like an island, in thoughts of what I see without harboring fantasies about what the untamed me wants to get?
Get swept away by charm and just when am about to loose it, tap me within an say "boy not just yet"?
Because in me are two kingdoms waging war because of you; one wanting to make me king and the other wants to make you Queen too.
But It turns out a king ain't complete without his Queen hence am putting an end to this war dear princess...
Can I Love you?

On this side of eternity where simile and metaphor transcends reality, and reality, in turn, is perceived as fantasy, the only reality occupying my fantasy is commitment, devotion, trust and a blend of affection, a readiness to defend your course with vigor and motivation, in sorrow, I give you exclusive declaration like, here's my shoulder you can cry on for a soothing sensation.
And even tensions are high and emotions amplify, am willing to listen as our hearts dance to the rhythm that, our souls tie.
And history would smile at that very moment in time when question raised was;
Can I Love you?

Can I Love you like Solomon did to wisdom; desiring her more than all the wealth of his kingdom?
Or like Jacob loved Rachel, let me wait for you in enduring purity with steadfast emotional stability; let me be your companion as we journey through streets of discipline, into the sweet comforting atmosphere of all round maturity.
By all round, I mean physical, emotional and spiritual;
See, I make you my choice, the one I uphold and am  confident you're the right one.
And if you doubt me, ask around if, before we met, I was a sane man.
With that said, it's no longer the question  "can I" but am driven to have you seat back, relax and watch me love you like you deserve.

There is a set of Conflicting contrasts about what I feel for you
The first, a resentment for the hopelessness in our paths not crossing in love
And the second, an obsession for the sustenance of your life cycle in my heart
But the sweetest of all these my darling is the freedom in your lips setting free the locked away smile, and running to my heart with such affection.
It's no wonder when I laugh or cry, I shed tears because in each case you heighten the emotion.

You shall, with vigor, face the days ahead.
Speak words that are enriching like wine and bread.
You shall, all your goals hit on first sight of aim.
As success drives you safe into hall of fame.
You shall, with  African strength, be the Queen of your home
Hold your family together with none to ever roam
You shall touch a person, a people, even a tribe
Ensuring all glory, to the Lord, you ascribe.
You shall be celebrated by both family and stranger
In your fears even enemies will  keep you from danger
You shall smile on hearing that  you make others smile too
And marvel when they show how the world, they think of you
For a sign of assurance that these things will be
You shall receive a special birthday prayer from me

Opposites, they say, attract;
but would the law of magnetism works in this case?
The gap between us reminds me of the rivers;
Niger and Benue
How they must have, long fantasized
the exhilarating comfort of a closer bond
"If only we come close" the waves whisper
"If only we come close"
Then we can dance to the beats of the current
responding to impulse by the peaceful sea breeze
If only we come close

If only we come close
The skies will smile again
As vapors of passion come together,
To form clouds of affection above
Then rain down showers of love upon us  
Watering the tender seeds in our passion
to grow into giant cedars of  unshakable Union  
If only we come close

If only we come close
You wouldn't need a name
Because you in me and I in you
would make us one and the same
If our streams must overflow
then it would be to transport tears of joy
For our willing hearts will  flow in love
If only we come close

If only we come close
Our season shall know no end
for a thousand generations
Our path will never bend
It shall cause happiness to reign
among both enemy and friend
My wish of a dream come true
If only we come close

I almost sold you out for a fake smile
For moments thoughts, I mean reasoning mourned my neglect of her like a lover mourning the lose of her prince charming on their first honeymoon night.
It wasn't the first, but the second glance that ensnared my conscience into thinking it could compare to the radiance that greets me into sunrise every morning.
I wonder...
Did you feel a strangeness in your eyes, or a sudden contraction of betrayal on your face?
Because I did.
I felt the coldness of emptiness caressing my conscience like white on rice, guilt was all over me
But wait...
It was just a smile, I thought to myself, how harmful could that be?

I almost sold you out for a cheap kiss
Yes.... My second glance made it look and feel too fine and sweet to miss.
The clasping of our lips panged  heavy on my confidence
Voice of reason in me grew from still small to a roaring rebuke...
Stop please stop, you're too much for this.
Stop please stop, you must not insist
But like a river determined to flow into the sea I kept on in that path and in real time, paving way of exit for my conscience whenever that voice of reason spoke.
It is just a kiss, who would fall for this?
Who would get carried away by a simple act such as that?
It was strange, the taste of something new, the taste of a sensation that didn't come from you.
I felt the coldness of emptiness caressing my conscience like white on rice, guilt was all over me
But wait...
It was just a kiss, I thought, who would ever fall for this?

I almost sold you out for a one night stand
So ashamed,
Like, "what was I thinking?"
How could I not smell a fowl play when the temporal promised a more lasting fulfilment than the eternal?
It seemed as if life had me set up and all of the odds placed against me...
But wait...
It wasn't life that made me look back
It wasn't fate that dragged my body into this unhealthy Union where I now stand with my conscience, desperately in need of a re-circumsision...
It wasn't destiny that led me to give away my dignity for some momentary pleasure at the expense of purity
I guess it has been me all the way
Setting up the trap and turning back to take the bait
What now?
Waking up from the illusion with half my senses in the right place and acknowledging the one thing that makes the difference between what I almost thought to be life what void your presence had filled...
Bottom line is..
You actually saved me even when I almost sold you out.

Take no hostages,
plunder not a thing
Leave no wreckages
But take me, the king
Hold me to ransom
by the spellbound ring
Am only handsome
When you, my joy, bring

I could, for your sake, take trip to the middle East
Where life is like living in the belly of beast
To preach against violence and hope they all fear it
Cause your love gives peace and with the world I could share it

I could exceed speed limits to get to you in time
Switch lanes on a one way even if it is a crime
If I get run over or caught by the police
Then it would be worth being reckless loving you like this

I could do the dishes and the whole house I shall keep
Even watch the kids; to get you extra hours of sleep
If I get a query cause I was making breakfast
At least I got the chance to make my love for you last

I could break a nose or even chop off someones head
Or just displace some bones but leave them alive instead
I shall declare enemies, that despise your person
My love shall defend you both in and out of season

I could lay down my life in your stead  if I have to
It may sound crazy but I'd do it cause I love you
Don't fear that you might loose me cause true love never dies
My love's divine and would remain however fast time flies.

When you face a wrong sentence and have nothing to say;
Keep calm and go through it as you pray.
Worrying too much may get you tired and depressed;
So ensure you make out sometime to rest
Take courage and try holing your peace,
Stay focused and see what the day would bring

Don't strive with mortal men to prove a point;
as too much argument may get you annoyed.
Instead give comfort a place in you to hide
And joy in abundance would be on your side.
Take courage and try holing your peace,
Stay focused and see what the day would bring

If they call you worthless and say you are spoiled;
and you find no one close enough to employ
remember; every human effort and toil
ends you up six feet deep inside the soil.
Take courage and try holing your peace
Stay focused and see what the day would bring

I love the part of me that loves the whole of you.
I love the part of me that believes this is true
I love the part of me that thinks you love me too
I love the part of me that makes me feel brand new

It was just me my pen and pad
then you brought the platform and gave me courage to start
I had doubts, fears and thought I wasn't up to the task
But your grace brought me thus far; all I did was ask
For giving me a voice that the world desires to hear
I owe you every word my pen will forever say
As for the journey thus far, here's my only plea
If the lord had not been by my side there would have been no me

Let's pretend I love you
And you do the same
We're now dating, So for starters
I'm thinking you need a pet name

Let me think...
Angel, Miracle, Sunshine or Delight
Well I'v used them before and sadly
I ended up with my pillow at night

Let's pretend we are happy and
I promise not to break your heart
And you believe me, then in turn,
You promise to do your own part

Let's pretend I've never done this before
I must do it right, So I drop on both knee
Let's pretend I Reached into my pocket
Still on my knees, then reach out to thee

Let's pretend you're wondering if these things are true
Hey! Look, these tears serenade deep affection for you
The pretence is over and that time, past due
When love does more, as words become few
©Crossyde

I see everything through the eyes of my brokenness
The torment kills every shred of confidence in me,
to raise my head and face this reality.
I sincerely hope that what I had always dreaded
had not caught up with me.
How do I look pass this failure,
and behold the light pointing out the path to redemption?
What would it take to make a fresh start?
Oh no....
Do I even need to make  a fresh start?
Oh no...
I need to refreshed my start

We are people with lots of imperfections and lots of failures too.
But it always feels so right and perfect whenever I am With you.
So I'm writing these words and hope, as you read this, you're  smiling like loved ones do;
Cause I'm smiling while writing and loving the feeling that my hearts feels towards you