Sugar sugar spice
Oh baby
Its my look that drives you crazy
Not my eyes
Open legs, closed mind, tradition follows
Let me pray
Today. Am I forgiven today?
Tomorrow I may sin again
Or maybe i'll just sing
Love, walks alone feeling misunderstood
Obsession, ***, naive
High socks, short skirt, shy smiles
Always a rebel, never held a cause
You keep running
Spicing up your day
Blaming others on your mistakes
Never at ease because
Always looking fot a place to hide
Oh baby
You are not even sweet
You have no spice
Not even darkness in your soul
You are just a ghost of the unknow
Trying to be someone believing it means something
When you only look like a fool
Transforming yourself into a joke

My heart feels cold
Heavy like a rock
tied to my feet
Slowly dragging me
to the end of your strings

I feel my words drowning me
I dont know if you listen to my songs
Underestimating the rythm
My heart beats by its own
I know you cant listen

You found your own
Maybe im not ready
Maybe you were not
Can I be a better version of myself?
For you, It seems like I couldn't

Every time you touched my skin
I gave you myself
You could not see it
Everytime I spoke to you
I gave you my mind

*** was not my game
Your touch blew me away
Smelling you my favorite part
Of that day

You were a closed book
No blank pages for me
The more I wanted to be a part
The more you pushed me away
Dolling next to you

You always ****** up my mind
Making me fall in love with your lies
Now i'll be in my head
Creating new worlds
Where love and chaos will be dancing as one
And ill be drinking champagne
From my place, my bed
Watching the ceiling open up to the stars
While my tears shine as dry ice
pear cut diamond rocks
And this ******* paradise
I'll make for myself, where I wont remeber your name
And you wont matter, someday.

I try to write you a song
But I had writers block
No words on my mind
I see them all in your eyes
Maybe you can say them at loud
Give them back to me
I will make you a gift
Full of joy and peace
Songs, poems or a letter
Sensitive skin
I would love to hold your knee
Your head back looking at the stars
Flying holding hands
There's no ceiling in our minds
Vibes and sparks
Connecting us
Making us one

I can not grasp the ******* perception of time
It seems that I do not understand present from past
And it kills me inside
Slowly ripping my mind apart
Numb heart, it feels every thing at once and nothing at all.
All of it is felt outside
Am I even here?
Not dreaming, dark circles. Never asleep but not fully awake.

People tend to think we are too sensitive
Too dramatic maybe sometimes a liability
Too much of everything
Vulnerable so we have to grow an ice barrier to carry our hearts
Just because you touch it and you feel the ice cold off it you get scared
You call us cold heart *******
Dont you see? Ice breaks so easily
Its all a false attempt of not getting hurt

We created a world, our world
It was mine, it was yours, it was ours.
We could close our eyes and fly to the sky
Dancing in cabins, breaking our hearts
Playing with fire while drinking some wine
I lay my head in my bed close my eyes in surrender
You were all I could see
I felt no love, I felt no pain
I felt only your breath.
Chrystal pieces shattered inside my chest
I see no heart was what the doctor had said
Rivers of blood running out of my veins
And all I wanted was to love you this way.

You died today
and I was born again
I have never breathe this fresh air
Your heart turn into ashes
And your memories fade away
Flying like black birds
They had nothing new to sing
I felt no sorrow
not a single tear running through my cheeks
Suddenly I smiled again
Love was inside me all along
as I kept pushing it away
It hugged me and whispered in my ear
You have always been free
Far behind I heard your sarcastic laugh
As soon I realized
there was nothing more to lose and everything for me to win

Freedom from my mind
This is why I write for
Fancy words are for the academic
Rhymes are for the educated ear
Or the musician
Poems are for the romantics and the sentimentalist
Words and a paper
Are meant for the caged bird
Dreams of flying
I portray in my words
This is the way I survive
Emotions, feelings
Crying and laughter
Play on the background of my notes

You want to fall out of love?
I'll tell you how
Let fear be the guide of your path
It will make you walk away from my heart
Disguise the love you feel with the mask of hate
It will be easier this way
Despair wont show if you buried it with pride
Remember the easiest way to forget is to blame
People get hurt, people move on, people fall in and out of love
But i'll always remember your laugh and you will forever have a part of my heart.

Blank pages
The way everything begins
Is fiction mocking reality? Or is it the other way around?
Who ******* cares
Everybody is looking for themselves
I look in the mirror and I see I'm there
Understand the trick
Is not about finding
It is about creating
We, the people are the masters of imagination
Lack the truth and realization
Hoping someone else comes and gives us answers
Underestimating our peace of mind
Freedom is in our blood
Our heart pumping, our veins running
Cells made of stardust
In this nonsense
I want to make my own revolution
I dont need a god I only need to love
Free living, running, and dancing
Understanding I am this world
And this world is I
We dont co-exist we are simply one.

Don't stare at me or even look my way
I know I'm not mad but I am chaos
I'm not destruction
I just belong nowhere
And it's not madness that surrounds me it's just sadness
Nothing great
Nothing genius
I belong nowhere

I miss you in places we've never shared
I miss you in every other face
Somebody told me this is a boring mistake
but this sentence burns inside my lungs
doesn't let me breathe
I need the smell of your hair
where my head decides to rest
I need you to hug me thight
mostly at night
I thought it was your hand that kept touching mine
it turns out it was only his
I didn't wanted closed to mine
the touch of another hand makes me cringe
makes me want to go crawling, begging back to you
But i wont do it,
I'll find a way to erase you.
Then the night comes the stars are dancing
My bed gets crazier
My head is dizzy and I meet you once again in my dreams
Always kissing you
Erase my memory
Let this pain fade away
because my love I know one thing
Love does not end this way
it does not end this fast
if you don't love me like I do
Take all of what you gave me
Keep all of what I gave you
And forgive me
for every way I try to forget you
I wont be fair in my despair
I never was
Its too hard my pain to handle
I cant get on my knees if you wont hug me
I just have to watch you go
Slip away as my favorite season
You wont kiss my neck anymore

Even though we fight the worst
Love does not end this fast
I dont want you back
But I still love you to the bones
You are the meanest and the sweetest
Im the craziest and a cuddler
Forever I'll have you on my skin
Some nights I'll visit you in your dreams

Crystal bones
breaks with a single touch
Thick muscle heart
Smile full of life
Or full of lies
It doesnt matter
Whatever you want
You will oblige
Your wish is her command
Everybody falls in love with the broken girl
Empty holes fills your needs
Not knowing who she is
Make her yours to be
Always looking for a home
Not knowing she is whole
Her weakness, your strength
That hole is your ******* doll
She tries hard to please
make everybody freel at ease
Mistaking it for love
she doesn't find her place
everything falls

Wait until you are ready for the kind of love you are not afraid to lose
The love that will bring laughter to your brain
And will keep away the tears from your heart

I ask around about me
What people see
That way I perceive
A game of hide and seek

I see their soul
The words they chose
To talk about my sin
Betray their own skin

*** is a man weakness  
Seems like my magnet
Maybe I need some kindess
You only play with my sadness

Weak or strong
Nothing or all
Who do you see?
You dont even know

Im not the answer you seek
Not in the world you live in