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Donovan Hudson Dec 2020
in my conscience there’s distorted cries
just waiting for the world to tell me why.

don’t know how much longer i can keep this mentally, can’t figure out how much longer im gon let this **** get to me.

should i slice? should i dice? or just let it happen?

i wanna see the startled faces when i look down upon them.

my heart hits a road block when i think about ma though, she’ll be hurting even more when i let the **** hit my throat.

but i can’t express myself so maybe I’ll stay quiet, as a matter of fact my brain turned into a ******* riot.

i feel like a soda bottle with too much carbonation, don’t know where to put my emotions so i just stay patient—
Donovan Hudson Apr 2019
no competition, no hesitation, we never stressin
look in my eyes to see my thoughts and my deep
confessions

no playin games we dont **** w/ lames we just tryna make it.


ain’t w the ride & you can’t decide then your spot is taken.

trial & error i was tryna get her but i got this feelin
stop chasing shortys, you’ll get what’s yours.
no more hearts that’s breakin.

now im immune & they assume what the **** I’m thinkin with conscious thinkin comes contemplatin there’s no mistaking.
Donovan Hudson Jul 2018
when she passed
my stomach filled w butterflies.
i looked at her and i see my future maximize.

with us laughing, and our life would be passing but then i come back to reality thinking that the **** happened.

but wait, i still was down for it.
all these feelings built up inside i cant ignore it

she had touched a part of my heart i've never felt before, almost deadly like her charm she always filled the void.

but anyways i guess she wasnt ready, or at least that's whats she said cause she asked to go steady.
Donovan Hudson May 2018
i keep my hands tucked w a blank expression
she likes to learn the hard way she's so **** obsessive
i learned a broken woman's heart is her most prized possession
girl lemme teach you a thing or two
there will be no more stressing

i know we have been distant in the pass but imma figure this **** out and make sure that its gon last
and never worry, i know sometimes life gets blurry but we gon make it out the 5 w some bomb *** stories
Donovan Hudson May 2018
im trapped, my mind stumbles.
my soul lost in the deep abyss my feelings crumble.

four corners w no door, start overthinking.
i seek acception but hey that **** taught me a lesson.

im at bay, everyone i trust they separate
I learned it at a young age but what is there to say.

so fill my void
i've been pretty patient but still annoyed.
thoughts hit me hard at night like an astroid.

cant lose my sanity, for all thats going on throughout humanity, dont play w me
cause underneath this skin is pure  insanity.

used to be courageous
w the sickness going on i got contagious,
generation still acting wild but yet i see no changes

relationships, couples going downhill like a soulless boulder, but dont forget girl your beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.
if you're hurt dont forget that you could cry up on my shoulder.
i mean i dont see how i could get much colder.
and then that ***** sold her.
ya **** right i'd love to say i told her but shes broken never woken and now i have to hold her.

— The End —