Watching lovers walking hand in hand
the laughter when children are playing
the glow of a golden sunset
that's when tears fill my eyes

Seeing people caring for their fellow man
seeing people hugging in friendship
when people sacrifice all for others
that's when tears fall from my eyes

When you love but are not loved
when broken but still standing
when in true agony and dying
that's when tears fill my eyes

Watching the birth of freedom
watching the makings of peace
when love truly rules this world
that's when tears will fill my eyes


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Black satin drapes over her delicate body
red silk adorns her face
she is the goddess of the dark
my beautiful nightmare

She beckons me to come to her
pulls me into her black hole
and there we make a covenant
only for her I draw my sword

She of many names adores me
so by her side I do fight
for the glory of her wisdom
and the poetry of the darkest night


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

you're into drugs
and I'm into you
you're always high
my heart is always blue

you look through my body as if it were glass
I could never be enough
still
a glimpse from time to time
maybe my smile reminds you of
the summer
we used to be
what I used to see
as a you and me
a blurred smile
then you're turning away
you twisted the plot and ripped out my heart
you closed your heart
and left me there
choking on shame

you're into drugs
and I'm into you
your world is so small
no space for two

I want to be your 911 and your favourite childhood blanket and I want to be your goodnight instead of your goodbye.
I want to be your favorite pair of shoes and the air beside you so that I'm always next to you and I know you're comfortable.  
I want to be my parents' "I knew she could do it" instead of their "she's not trying hard enough."
I want to be my friends' safety net and not their other 24hour emergency hotline-dial-me-when-you-need-me. I am not temporary.
I want to be a girl who smiles because the world engraved laugh lines in her gentle face and not a happy pill trapped mistake.

But I will never be those things.
I will never be those things because, in your eyes I will be the last cigarette in every pack that smells and tastes so good, but hurts your chest in the most unforgivable way.
But I will never be, for you.

Fire with fire
an eye for an eye
the whole world burns
more men become blind

The earth became charred
man had lost his way
that choice of blindness
brought his last day

She battles her demons, day in, day out.
They don’t stay quiet, they scream and shout.
They tell her she’s ugly, they tell her she’s fat.
Her thighs are too big and her stomach’s not flat.
She starves herself but that’s not enough.
This desire to be thin has proven to be tough.
It’s making her miserable, it’s making her sad.
The quicker the weight loss, it won’t be as bad.
But the weight is staying and it won’t disappear.
She’s taking it to the extreme
And she’s making it clear
That she wants to be thin
And thin she will be.
But what you don’t know is that girl is me.