I am running away
Although I am sitting still
I am eating food
Although I am full
I meditate
Whilst my mind races elsewhere
I am awake
But oh, so tired
I am frustrated
But inactive
Alert
But drowsy
I want to create
But don’t know where to start
I want to love
But want to be left alone
I want to dance
But I don’t want music
I want to be drunk
But I don’t want a drink
I want to smoke
But I couldn’t stand a cigarette
I want to sleep
While I am awake
I want the opposite
Of what I need
I want...I don't...I want...
2nd May 2020