It's silly how I found you so weird
How I laughed silently at how lame your jokes were
How I cried silently at how I had to explain how nothing was your fault

It's silly how I regret, yet constrain myself
Because as much as I think of you,
I hate you for the things you said.

It's silly how you have no idea, sillier that you probably never will
But I never want to see your face again,
Although you made me smile.

You made me feel things when I didn't know how to,
And it makes me happy sometimes.
The other times, I hate you for using me.

And sometimes, I hate you for messing around,
I also hate you for killing my self-esteem.
You could call it self-torture,
But I rather stay away,
Than to allow you to grow flowers in my heart,
After pouring acid all over the garden,
*Twice.

In your beautiful brown eyes,
there is no space for the sight of me,
INVISIBLE
is what you see,
like a clear crystal glass.

you say;
the view of me through your eyes,
leaves you blind,

INVISIBLE
is what you see,
with an empty heart,
you choose not to look, not see
so vain you've become,
when I beg and plead for you to notice me,
to notice the aquamarine dress I put on just for you,
the glistening eye shadow your favorite shades of blue ,
you cynical remarks make me feel ugly,
I try so hard to please you but yet,
INVISIBLE IS WHAT YOU SEE!

why cant you love me?
make me feel like the woman,
I was always proud of when I used to make you happy?
our home has become as cold as you have become,
our love has become old as shriveled up fruit,
the fruit of our discontinuous love.
all because you lost the beauty you saw in me,
you lost the long heart beating love for me,
you gave up on what could have been the best part of our intimacy,
the once escalating, growing relationship,
that's become an empty strange broken down place,
cob-webbed and gray,
you never told me what I'd done wrong to push you away,
maybe I wasn't doing enough to entertain you everyday
you'd say.

I want you to be free,
so you can no longer endure the pain of seeing me,
it wouldn't matter now anyways,
I was always invisible to you,
so this is my way of ending your malignant pain
Don't cry, be happy,
one of us had to run away and die from this misery,
I nominated myself to die,
so you no longer had to see me
now as I write my last words
I feel free from all the burden and misery
of you seeing invisible me.
Goodbye my lover, partner friend
my heart will always love you till the end.

please leave
you're drowning me
in carelessness
and i can't seem
to swim my way out
of this one
destruction
resides in my soul
failed to mention
your hollow heart
tore mine apart

Only the
past is set
in stone,
my friend.

You don't have
to continue
being the
person you
were
yesterday.

You fell for the girl
with a travelers heart
who's eyes mimic
the worlds most vibrant art.

You loved the girl
with marks on her skin
like permanent kisses
from the places she's been.

You held the girl
with songs in her soul
which she learned from experiences
you'll never know.

You were angered by the girl
who left you alone
'cause the need for adventure
was etched in her bones.

-ARI