going to bed while I'm full of dread
too many bad thoughts in my head
as I drift off into the deep
I see images of dying sheep
waking up sweating, pain in my chest
it makes it hard for my mind to rest
the only hope that I keep
is gently dying in my sleep

The life flew from your eyes,
Your secrets leaked from your brain,
Clean up on isle 4,
Who knew you'd be dead walking back,
Out the door,
Dead,
Predictable,
Lightning shook through,
As your body pulsed,
Concrete coffin,
At least the floor was swept,
I watched a man die tonight.

looking back with no anger
just anxiety, feel my life in danger
the soul can only bear so much
I've grown too numb to recognize a touch
can't even tell your love from your disdain
but no one can hurt me, I've been through deeper pain

the feeling flees, fleeting flies
staring up at the ceiling tiles
no way pf telling when they'll leave me be
for once in my life I'd like to not feel so crazy

This
         *contained
                            energy
   Will be the
******* end of me
                      
     In my symphonic body I paint a note too hard to reach
     Still I speak as though im at the peak
    Staring down at fallen leaves

     Acknowledging to myself if I was to actually leap,
       I would already be on the ground

   No sound comes around as I scream from my mouth
           Temptation to change perceptions of me are too big to ignore
           They beget more of their own kind than before
       And now im staring up at that note from my bedroom floor
If I could reach it
       In the right key it might open a door
And let in fresh air to sink into my pores
  
This
         Contained
                              Energy
Could be the end of me
But I promise I wont let it
      I will strive to fly higher until I finally have spent it