Recently it's as though my mind, my body , but most of all the entirety my soul, are confined within a perpetual limbo, they're suffering, neglected and abused.
My thoughts are smashing into each other while fighting against one another, amidst a whirlwind within perfect storm, ripping at my emotions, which by themselves have been confused.
Beneath my skin there lies this undefinable rage, a monolithic knot of sadnness and fury with an insatiable hunger I can not stifle, so it just keeps growing.
With my eyes wide shut I lock away my voice and continue with my facade, in my stillness and silence a smile is worn, in hopes of no one knowing
A small part of me utters, in an almost breathless whisper, for help, boldly but softly I cry " hurry, i have lost myself again, please come and set me free".
But those whispers, they are drowned out and beaten down by the more dominate constraining force within, and it's motive......merely is to hide me.
I am wandering, meandering aimlessly around what once was the most familiar path I've ever traveled... my life
Unrestrained thoughts and memories that I tried to rid my mind of, in a awful frenzy race in... each one cutting like a knife.
There's an emptiness, a massive void is now spreading through out the place I would lock away the sadness, as it now is flowing free.
What a beautiful disaster it will make, when these sullen clips of my trouble mind are played for all the world to view and like a plague take over me.