Stuck in an infinite cycle
Like a song left on repeat

Destruction
Creation
Destruction
Creation
Hope
Anguish
**­pe
Anguish

Despite my ultimate demise
I always get up
Just to fall again

In my grave I’ll rot
Waiting
For those who won’t come
Waiting
For those who aren’t worth it
Waiting
For those who don’t care

In my grave I’ll rot
Longing
For those who don’t love
Wishing
For those who don’t miss
Hoping
For those who don’t remember

In my grave I’ll rot
Remembering
Those who were there
Feeling
For those I touched
Proud
Of those who I influenced

In my grave I’ll rot
Easy

I’ve dug two graves
For us my dear
There’s nothing more
For me to hear
Right here
Is where we’ll lay
All it cost me is my life
For eternity we will wait
It’s not much
Considering the stakes
With you I cross me heart
And hope to die
Without you I’m not alive
Together we will be
And that is all I see

I breathe slow
My mind moves fast
My feet guiding my body
Pacing up and down
Back and forth
Like a metronome
My thoughts click
Faster
and
Faster
Until I hold my breath
And my head clears
Now absent of everything
An empty space
That was once overfilling
Like a clock
I reset
And start again

I grow jealous of the wind
It picks you up off your feet
And flows through your hair

I envy the rain
It runs down your body
Getting closer to you than I ever will

The ocean mocks me
As it hugs you
Fully engulfing your body

I wish I had the moons eyes
So that I could watch over you at night
Sharing my warm glow

Instead I lie alone
Asking the stars
Why I wasn't enough

Happiness is a friend who left me on read
Purpose ignored my snapchat
Complacency blocked me

I found new friends
But I don't like them much

Loneliness tells me jokes, at my cost
Sadness cuddles with me, but her touch is cold
Humility points out my strengths
and my flaws

I want my old friends back
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I feel like a pistachio shell
With no nut inside
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