Anxious heart palpatations
I don't like this part
I like the part where
A date is set
Or rejection is done
I don't like the
Antici... pation
But maybe you do
Gotta think positive
You lit up when I asked your age
That caught me off guard
People don't usually get excited
To tell someone their age
I am known to read into things
That aren't there
I think that is why
This part is no fun for me
I can't read attraction
I see it when there is none
I think you like me
Catching my eye
From accross the room
Repeatedly
Only time will tell
God I wish I was an empath
Instead of a kind psychopath

I'm anxious as f
Did I throw myself at you
I hope not
Please ask me for a date
I like your hair
I'll get used to your name
Even though right now
It is a ridiculous name
I'm sure you've heard every worn out joke
That could be written with it
I'm so glad
You are young enough for me
My hand felt so nice in yours
I am not sure if we have dance chemistry
I thought so
But my nerves were strong tonight
I have nothing more to say about it
Yay I like someone
Ask me out

Someday
Someone I love
Is going to love me
As much as I love you
And he will wife me the f up
And we will live
In matched effort
Loved ever after

It has been a hard week for me
But you look happy
I am glad
That is wonderful
I love...
Me.

I want to run away from everything
I want to leave it all behind
But I cannot
Because it's all stored in my mind

I gave you s* for being stuck on her for 3 years
Then I got stuck on you for 3 years
At least now I see absolutely no reason why
I should think anything positive about you
Other than to wish you love and prosperity so you'll be happy
But I just want that for everyone

This was not the week to see you.
I am already so emotional.
As it is the 18 year anniversary of my husband's death.
There you are.
Old. A little fat. Balding.
Who am I kidding if you didn't hate me
I would love you forever
F* right the f* off
I deserve to be loved, cherished, and adored
Jah let me forget you