just this once
can I not run
from a safe haven
full of hope
into a den of beasts?

why do I look for that?
am I afraid of peace?

in the dark water
a shining light
is it the Sun
or the eye
of some

monster of the deep

I tell myself that I hate you
deep down I know that isn't true

the truth is that I am afraid
of a love sharper than a blade

the things I hope and feel and want
are not so easy to confront

so I conceal my pain and fear
with anger
like a steel veneer

the day dances
the day sings

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the night wanders
the night has wings

for you
I would have
never stopped hoping

I'd have followed you into Hell
with my eyes open

and now I don't know
the way to follow
far from your shadow

but I am coping

life is like a roller coaster
you know the track is broken
but you don't know where

it takes a lot of laissez-faire
to mean when you say
"I don't care"

there's no way to avoid disaster
and the roller coaster
goes faster and faster

it takes courage
to put all that aside

smile with your eyes
and enjoy the ride

I want to

T    E    A   R

you from my heart



but the roots have grown so deep



I'm scared it would

T    E   A    R

me apart