Pretending it didn't hurt
didn't sting

Did you know I would have done
anything?

I would rather feel alright
than be yours

I don't want to hurt myself
anymore

I don't need comparison to categorize me with clarity
a singularity not predicated on duality
I don't need anybody to validate my identity
when my identity is validated by reality

those whom we did not defend
today are the ones who attack
no matter how much we pretend
the pendulum always swings back

I don't know my soul
I don't give a ****
I'd rather be happy
than know who I am

this is my sanctuary
YOU cannot come in
I want to be alone
so I can be safe

I slam the door shut
in your FACE

strange shapes                          

shift past
                
                               stained glass

who is outside?
I become curious to know
I try to open the door

I am not strong enough

the door stays closed

no one can unlock my heart
at least nobody else but me
it's been so long
I don't even remember
where I hid the key

the lock is there
because of fear
but I don't know of whom or what
it must be something
much more frightening
than these one thousand cuts

you are shipwreck
and disaster

cursed no matter what I do

you are the maelstrom
and the monster

every storm leads back to you