how translucent
existence seems
like a memory
of a dream

echoes of echoes
that become
an inarticulable hum

the time it takes
until we know
reality
moments ago

feels like thunder
and makes me wonder

is it ever really now?

they each think I
am on the other side
not anymore

here in the center
all I see
is two long rows of swords

out in the open
with the others
I could stay forever

this will not be a gauntlet
till you learn to come together

hate
reject
don't know

   I             ?           U  

understand
want
love

I want to be loved
really truly
for me

If you love me for something else
what does that mean?

Do you love the illusion
you are thinking of?
That is not who I am.

Who do you love?

we see how seeing seems
and we feel how we feel
how much is a dream
how much is real
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lost in illusion
to deep to be found
dreams within dreams
turtles all the way down

no sunlight falls
on this path I have chosen
my heart is not broken at all
it is frozen

I wander the darkness
in search of your light
you are the shadow
and I am the night

I love and I hate you
with all of my heart
and when I think about you
I am torn apart

once more at the crossroads
the lines seem to vanish
but it doesn't matter
all roads lead to madness

the mind is a kaleidoscope
that makes the whole world bright
so full of shapes and colors
like a wonderland of light

the patterns are so beautiful
symmetrical and strange
when I turn the kaleidoscope
I see the patterns change

I watch existence tessellate
and open like a flower
perception means so much to me
I give it so much power

but when the mirrors melt
and let my mind into the night
I hope that
for one moment
I will truly see the light