I walk alone
I find beauty in the sparkle of the sidewalk when the sun hits it just right
I follow the crack in the concrete like a map
It wasn't meant to be there but I'm glad it is

I'm glad I am

I find beauty where I thought I'd find pain
These are the moments that let me feel sane
Search for beauty where it's least expected
You'll find a shine in your eye and a love that is reckless

But there's beauty in the hectic
Embrace the beautiful when it's messy

I want to break down in front of a stranger
I don't want them to ever know my name
I feel safer spilling my doubts on paper
I want to hear from those who feel the same

My feet are cold but yours are so warm
they're just bones but it's comfort and I feel at home
Dozing off
Blurred lines dont tell where you end and I begin
and thats just the way you want me
Just the way you want me to be

I love nostalgia
it makes me cry
Thinking of those good times
when I used to feel alive
Never thought about what it would be like to die
I almost know how it feels to start losing a life
Shaving days off of mine without blinking an eye
You'd think I'd pull the trigger with all this talk of goodbyes
But I'll never fully grasp the concept of why

There are land mines under your skin
is that the reason you won't let me in?
Fully, I mean; there's parts that I've seen
But you've built a wall, it's tough and it's tall
and I doubt you'd know how to break through at all.
Even if you tried to climb, you'd probably fall.
How many bridges can two people share?
You burn them all down and leave me to repair.
You should try to approach a bridge that we've built,
take my hand and cross it, without giving me guilt.
I'd travel across waters with you
on the bet that maybe someday you'd be true.
Do you not see what you've put me through?
This wall I've torn down to get closer to you?
At any moment you're destined to blow
Your current grabs me, I'm stuck in the undertow

If I give you closure will you finally let me close the door?
There's nothing much left to say, you can't ask for much more
Ducking all your phone calls like I am too busy for this
No longer in it to win, no longer looking for Vin
But you don't get that, you think it's about other men
Don't want to say it again, but it's not about other men
You put on a show like I was your world
And I'm doubtful that you'll ever know the weight of your words
But their breaking your shoulders
One more thing you just wish that you told her
Over and over
And you just wish you could hold her

You told me you would be there if the tables were to turn
But we've been there, and you don't care, I've finally discerned.
Sacrifices made on my end, you needed a warm body
I'll no longer pretend that you've genuinely got me

I keep collecting extra straws because the last one's drawn too soon
I'm rising with the sun and have to let you chase the moon
Selflessly hoping to help you grow attuned
While helplessly knowing that to love, you are immune