The summer sun smiled softly across his face
I stare into his glistening blue eyes
Dawns light pours through his blinds
I love the moment when his eyes close
His lips open in slow motion

The feeling of your lips on mine
Sends electric shocks through me
I wonder if a girl like me
Knows what love is ?
He starts to touch my skin
My body tenses as my mind says no
My words says otherwise
Breathing gets harder and faster
Its sad we haven’t spoken in months
I’ve given you everything
That I could give you
Yet it’s still not enough

Cruising in your car
Windows down
Wind in our face
All I wanted was to be friends

Now
I’m high off your love
I don’t want to come down
I want to be with you
Until you have to leave me,
Again

The words you told
Made me feel bold
Now I’m alone
“Please don’t go”
You’re already halfway out the door

You
and
I
We’re drastically different
To be in love
With you, someone who is half in love with me
This is a ****** up game
Of feelings and heartbreak

You don’t know
What it’s like
To fall
          in
              love
                   with you
You don’t know
What it’s like
To hold on to you
                    while you push me away  
                
You don’t know
What it’s like
To constantly glace at my phone
                Waiting for your name to pop up
                                                     But it never does  
You don’t know
What it’s like
To have to let you go ...
                You’re like the tide
                      come and go when it’s  convenient  
                                            Fo­r you.

When midnight comes along
I’m your midnight text
The ***** things running through your mind
When you’re lonely
And attempting to forget

A fading smell of your cologne
Lost on one of my many empty pillows
The stray short brown hair
Left on my sweater I wore
Stranded
Alone lying there
Like me on this lonely evening

I couldn’t begin to count, the countless memories I’ve lost with each pour of the whiskey bottle

Everyone disintegrating from a sip of substance A mind washed away from a forever empty glass
A fading hint of cologne lost on an empty pillow
I suddenly remember, all that you were

This isn’t want I wanted
I just want you
I want to love you
I just simply cannot
But I go along
For the adventures
For the poetry
For sweet nothings whispered
By you, a stranger

I made a promise to myself
That I wouldn’t allow myself
To be your second choice
A tool to cure your loneliness  
but yet I find myself
on this lonely evening
In your bed
once again

I go back to the park
Where we met, as strangers
I sit on the wooden bench
Where you cuddled me
Thoughts of that foggy night
Suddenly cross my mind
I feel numb
I could still taste you on my tongue