They say I'm good, they say I'm fine. I'm meeting all the appropriate lines but I go to work, I feel slow And I come home to feel all alone When I speak its hot but not They say it is and then its not. I'm too close im too far Where can I find the middle land If I can even stand I feel like im too much i just need someone too clutch I don't need help im not a child But I just wish someone would be by my side When im alone the world is dark Spinning in my head I feel like my heart has turned to lead I give and give At least thats how I try to live But I feel like its not enough And my emotions I try to ***** Im suffocating in my own skin I hurt in silence its the best Better than pushing my pain on the rest Ill keep trying And ill keep slipping
Is it all in my head am I a fool? No im alone and sad in my room. There are those who'll say they'll stay Then they don't and I just lay But its alright they say im fine Apparently im meeting all the appropriate lines
Sun licked grass tickles my toes And its my time. Time to be free in the sky Time to knit the world into my own pattern To discover the dips and turns in my skin To become the wonder I am I'm neither heaven nor **** I'll be the beauty in between
My insides burn, turn and broil. I feel as if I could burst. I want to do everything. And yet nothing excites me. Im worn from a long day but try as I might sleep doesn't come. Worries of the world stir through my head. I ache, I hurt, I yearn to sleep yet she still doesnt come. Hunger twists my stomach yet no food fits my mood or apatite. Colors are bright yet bring me no delight or interest. The night wears on and yet I am still not gone. Sleep is the cool water on a burn, the mute on a loud static. The pause, the peace. Sleep is the calm in a life of chaos. Why does she now evade me. A yawn escapes my lips. Please come. End the pain and suffering of the day. Take it away so in the new day I can wake calm and prepared ( and a little grouchy). I've lost all ability to think and yet I still can't sleep. Another yawn, one step close to the rest, the goodbye to the colors and hello to the hollow darkness where thought carries its own weight and no longer weighs down my head.
Resting, resting in puddle The grains relaxed splayed across one another The sand is peaceful It is undesturbed The worlds chaos passing it by Watching the world as through a glass its where it belongs No pretenses - no emotion Just stillness as the sand melts content in a puddle as not a participant but an observer Life passes by
Promises don't mean jack ****. Words have become meaningless. Words are pretty - words are fine But they aren't going to be there at night when I cry. All the trust I put into his words rattles to the floor because they had no support. **** him **** his promises All his comforting whispers **** the nights he called me baby I let him call me his **** the nights I let him hold me **** the nights I trusted him to touch me **** me for being so ****** So silly so naive I listened to his ******* I drowned in his eyes and the falsehoods they told. I should've stayed strong Shouldn't have let him into my heart How could I let him reel me in just to cast me out I was too shallow. I allowed jealousy to get to me. I wanted ownership I wanted love I wanted rights So I broke my one rule **** it **** him and his promises I will be my own again I was strong before he came. He does not define me I do I control my future
When minds constrict And inspirations lost, The canvas blank And hands seem idle, Though thoughts seem gone Do not secede the struggle. The next gleaming rainbow will form And the drop of dew that clings to a blade of grass will be born.