I belong right here
in your arms
where I can be safe
from myself.

R.M.

we came together like a dying star
a single second that sparked a universe
chasing stardust through galaxies
i connect the freckles on your skin
like constellations
base elements forming life
in copper and green and deep wide black
i feel the expanse of skin on skin on skin
like honey dripping from my fingertips
as i touch the side of your cheek
a supernova of emotion
a collapse of everything that i am
and was and will be
forming existence in my own combustion
birthing oxygen in my stifled lungs
my heart takes off like a startled deer
crashing through trees and underbrush
coming to a sudden stop at the edge of a cliff
i stand on the precipice and stare down
at the rush of white water beneath me
and you smile up at me
raising your hands in invitation
i take a breath and step off the edge
only to realize that i am already at the bottom
five feet under and sinking
i struggle for breath against the weight
of the universe at home in my chest
suns dying and being born
in the sparks behind my eyelids
when i feel the press of lips
and the twitch of anxious fingers
and the ragged sound of ruin
in a dark room
you kneel at my feet and stare up at me
move your lips soundlessly
eyes wide and wild as the universe
as if to say
- is this okay -
it always will be
until the stars die out
and little by little
piece by piece
atom by atom
we become
stardust

Do Not Go. Stay.

stay and be mine to suffer bliss and earthly delights
stay and indulge me in complete You.
stay and be thorough. rummage through my things
and tell me you love me, while leaning in
for our first kiss.

yes.

I am infatuated with how your face lights up when you smile.
I can’t stop thinking about how your eyes shine like emerald and your voice travels like candy;
How I want to taste those sweet words rolling off your lips.
I want to feel your heartbeat against my chest, better yet, in my ears while I listen to it skip a beat as I lean in to kiss you.
I want to sleep next to you but in the most innocent sense of the word;
Tangled up in your arms and in your bed, enjoying the simple thought of you.
I keep starting with I, but all I can think about is you.
You are so unknowingly beautiful, it drives me crazy to know you don’t think you’re a *** of gold, shining at the end of my rainbow.
You help me find confidence and help stabilize my trembling fingers.
You give me the heart racing, voice trembling butterflies you only see in movies, finding hope in happy endings.
Though, for some reason, I can’t put my tongue on the exact reason why it’s you.
Sometimes souls just connect and create something beautiful, and god I hope that ours keep doing just that.

Okay, I’ll admit it-
Maybe I don’t love you
Because when I saw how his gaucheness made you chortle-
How his mundanity carved your dimples,
I could feel every winged insect inside of me shrivel up and plunge into my deepest cavity.

I know love isn’t self seeking-
But is it so wrong to feel cheated when I once owned the patent to your smile?