It’s sad when you can feel the end
looming nearby
You can hear it in the inflections
and the more frequent silences
You can see it in the empty eyes
that were once filled with love

Stuck in that place between
actually being in love
and just being convienient

The secrets I hide
cling to my insides
clawing their way out
to the bottomless pit

The lies the lies
they sink sink sink
spilling onto the canvass
just outside the door

Running does no good in a dream
the darkness always nipping
at your seams
Fluttering eyes R.E.M
r...e..m
You know that your sleeping
dreaming convulsing
Splattering onto the tiara
I wore as a child

The disappointment that hangs
in the air is all but mild
Swirls of orange around
bubbles of glass
Two yellow lines
DO NOT PASS

Not good enough, not good enough
Not good enough for who??
I’m good enough, I’m good enough
Just never for you.

To the average you, from the average me
There is nothing going on, as far as any average eye can see.
But if you look a bit deeper,
past the flesh and bone
You’ll see that my heart beats even faster
if you call me on the telephone.

If you look at my in the hall,
my soul seems to die, my heart jumps
out of my chest
and it makes me want to cry

If you held my hand
My muscles would get tighter
My heart would skip several beats
and the shine would shine even brighter

If you were to kiss my lips
my body would die inside
my heart would stop
my knees give way
and as I lay on the ground
you’d push the hair from my face
and I love you is all you’d say

But these are all what if’s, could been’s
or never wills

Because only in a dream
do you feel the way I do
Only in a dream do you say
I love you.

I saw you this morning
in the shadow of a cloud
You couldn't hear a word I said
even though I was screaming so loud

The end is coming
the end is near
but the pounding of your heart beat
is all you could hear

I ran to your side
and whispered in your ear
I love you, I love you, I love you my dear!
Please listen to me, please open your eyes,
Please give me the key, please undo these ties

I shake you and shake you,
why wont you wake?
Please wake up now,
Don't make me wait

The tears are streaming down my cheeks
and there is no hand to wipe them away
no soft soothing voice,
no warmth from your body
No lovely face to distract me from my pain
No one to love me.
No love at all.

I don't like feeling lost

For so long I felt like I was found,
Because I found you..

Now your love waivers and breaks me a little more each day

I felt so strong with you, everyday I could handle

With you by my side I could conquer the world,
my worst fears, the numbness I feel

But I feel you slipping like sand between my fingers
but the harder I squeeze the faster you fall away

The weight of me and my responsibilities
is too much for you to help carry,
but I can help carry yours too!

I can be there for you as you are there for me at the same time,
we can fall together, forever and meld into one.

But you won't listen, you are too stubborn.
I am not exactly what you are looking for
but that's what you are to me..
please don't leave.