one day i’ll wake up and the thought of waffles will be on my mind instead of ur lips. our memories carved into the back of my brain. deep in the dark side. trying to get out. screaming and calling. but i’ll push them away. cause in the end you didn’t want me.

You saw me when I was most vulnerable. you striped the clothes off my body. carefully ******* me. peacefully kissing my neck. running your fingers down my body. to you it was just ***. you vocalized you loved me before you came. but you love the feeling. you loved not being alone. to you it was *** to me it was making love.

when i’m around you everything else goes away. the sun goes down. the walls cave in. you’re standing there. eye to eye. you look at me and I smile. then I wake

some things I will never understand. why are there more rainy days then sunny. there are closed doors to my happiness. it’s locked and I can’t get in. the clouds continue to cover the sun.  how can everything be so happy, then the world drops. my stomach hurts. my eyes get blurry. they say it’ll get better. they say you’ll be fine. they don’t know . the pain is never ending. i’m in a revolving door. but when I get to the end where you can escape, there’s something in my way.