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camps Aug 2018

i want to set myself on fire just to come close to how you made me feel [alternate]

lightning may never strike twice in the same place
but i hope you do

right where you make me feel alive

#lightning #fire #heart #love #wandering #soul

Mar 2018

Virginie

Parmi les vagues au milieu de l'océan,
sous le ciel orageux et menaçant :
je t'attends.

Parmi l'immensité de l'univers, suffoquant
sous les étoiles scintillantes :
je t'attends.

Parmi la merveilleuse nuit tombante,
accompagnée d'une couleur sombrante :
je t'attends.

Parmi les affreusetés apparantes
de cette société répugnante :
je t'attends.

Parmi les individus arrogants
au sein de ce restaurant :
je t'attends.

Je t'attends à chaque instant,
là où mon cœur se trouvant
fort seul, te voulant pour un moment.

camps Mar 2018

i fell in love with a girl in london and i'd do it all over just to see her smile at me again

my heart nearly stopped every time i had to cross the street
so let’s thank the queen for writing it down
before she’s just another thing i have to step over
all the rest have tickled my feet so far
and everything under construction reminds me that these days
the only remedy seems to be better luck and more cloud cover

i’ve been racing to crash on the couch
just to wake up to see if i have time for it all
and i want the stereotype to be true so i have nothing to cry about
with the way things are going
you’d tell me not to be so brutal to myself
but the thrill i used to know is now paying its dues to the concrete

i was almost convinced i wasn’t asleep
when she whispered paris
nothing, everything may have changed
so this is not like anything i’ve never meant:

my heart nearly stopped with the regret of not talking to you
it's hard killing birds when you don't have any stones and
besides this time i think i've really done it
two days and this is already my favorite story but
second chances don't have to be so mysterious
maybe i just wanted to see you smile again

i should have said it w/o one of and the s after the L
still choosing o over x
and your pull showed my hands a home in the back of your denim
two across the channel makes the significant not so, if you want it
i’ll keep looking for you so long as you
don’t stop drawing me maps

if i died in my indecision then
your mouth showed me heaven
you’re the closest thing to purpose
i’ve ever tasted

i wish you knew how much i mean that

natacha | london, england

#london #england #city #love #smile #coincidence #fate #destiny #heart #heaven

camps Feb 2018

depression killed my creativity and it's going to take more than sunshine to get it back

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i want to buy these mice a home so
that their presence helps keep the table clear
i think i’ll place it in the gap between the door and the floor
in the hopes of keeping the noise out and
of having at least one of us feel
a sense of being welcome

the paper bags in my hands wouldn’t feel
heavy if they knew where they were going maybe
and hitting my head against the bed again doesn’t stop me from
showing off the letters on my chest although
i’ve been known to miss the mark

if there's a spark in her eyes it’s 'cause she stole the light from mine
but i like the cold because it makes me feel alive

my favorite part comes around
when the two trains meet and for a second
i can catch a glimpse of everyone’s place in the world
before we’re whisked away to
our respective loneliness

or maybe it’s where the streets
run narrow like those in the places where
connection, if anything, tastes a bit more genuine
it's quite polarizing but this time i’ll seek
comfort in the grey of it until it
all comes rushing back

they say home is where the heart is so this probably still isn’t it
but it will do for now

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[new york city] | [definition of home] | [pursuit of cold]

#newyorkcity #home #cold #belonging #creativity #depression #purpose #sunshine #comfort #loneliness

Jan 2018

b

Like a river flows

I really thought I found her